Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out. I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down. Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her. My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later. I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better. My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help. She had a major strop. I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard. I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up. Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it. But I feel even worse now. I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else. I just keep crying and feel so very very sad.

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Yantibee we're all on classic fm here too at the moment. So we're on the same 'tunes' as you in the wee small hours.

Hope today and particularly tonight are better.

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Elenium...(probably others too) it's like we're in an uncomfortable holding pattern of no sleep or bad sleep, exhaustion, stress, grief and confused brains.

Others tell me this too will pass but there's no time frame.

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Maisiemae just read back a bit. .bees? Honey? Do you still do this.

Trinity Hospice was a haven of peace for Mum and I over the months. Fantastic place. We are addingdonation envelopes for them to Mums funeral.

Elenium over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Am at work and hiding in the toilet again. 3 people have told me they're sorry about mum even though I asked that no one mention it. I had to cut them off and say I can't talk about it. One woman persisted and I had to walk awsy. Couldn't hold it together.

Glad I came in as that's done now.

I was getting angry on the train as it was delayed for so long snd was then getting upset but then saw someone sending a text message that had hearts all over it. Made me smile till I saw what he'd written then realised he's probably having an affair as he deleted all the messages...

I suppose life goes on.

Elenium

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to Elenium

That work toilet is your refuge Elenium...it deserves recognition.

Horrible heart sending man on train don't like him.

People keep offloading mum stories on me and it tires me. They're all nice memories but I can't take it. The funeral will be challenging?

Hope work helps you after the initial comments.

Hug.

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Good you have a safe place at work. I hope it gets easier xxx

Elenium over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Work wasn't so bad after all. It was good to do something normal.

It's good that I have the toilet to esape to. Don't know what I'd do without it...

Hope everyone is ok today.

Elenium

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Dear jenny. Yes we still have bees. If and when we meet you will receive a jar of our very own honey. Stranger still, we work at Trinity Hospice and have done for some years x

Elenium over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

I hope that we do manage to meet up. I've spent so long not being able to plan anything it seems strange that I now have time to plan and meet with friends.

Elenium

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Maisiemae you might have been there the same time as Mum and I!

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