Having a bad day

Bobles it's not nuts!!! I picked Jill's clothes and she always felt the cold so I chose a nice dress she had bought which was a wool style black and white material then some thick black woolly tights like she wore in winter but I let the boys choose her shoes and they selected( from a huge choice!! She liked shoes) a pair of black high heels. Jill bought high heels but never really wore them as she could in her words never walk properly in them so I asked the FD it I could put an extra pair of flat Ones in for when she got to the place after here as I wanted her to be comfortable!!! I thought I was nuts too but it's not it's just us caring right to the end for our loved ones and doing all we can to continue to make them as happy and comfortable as we could xx 

I hope everyone has a peaceful day and finds some comfort today x

I'm exhausted. I fall asleep in the chair in the afternoon,  in fact I just woke up, then can't sleep at night. I have sleeping tablets but try not to overuse them. Everything's been too much like hard work this weekend.

I'm guessing this is another of my new 'normals'

Hate my new 'normal'

Sue

Xx

Sue, I fall asleep on the sofa all the time.  I'm not sleeping properly at night. I keep waking up and am very restless. Yesterday when I fell asleep both my dogs keep jumping up at me.  One on my legs and the other was standing up the sofa tapping me with her paw.  I was completely oblivious.  My husband told me they were doing it for about half an hour.  He kept trying to get them to leave me alone but they wouldn't.  We'll probably get back to normal but it takes time, unfortunately.

Having a bit of a numb day today.  Not really feeling much.  I have little 5 minute burst of sadness and crying and then it goes away and I feel nothing.

Hope everyone else is OK ish today.

X

Today I don't seem to be able to believe Mum is dead. Yet I saw her after she had died. It doesn't make sense? It's like she's just out or at hospital? 

Jx

Re sleeping. ..I sit down and fall asleep. ..go to bed and wake up.

Jx

6 weeks on and I keep looking at the phone and it doesnt ring. I pick it up and mums number doesnt exist any more. Thank goodness for the messages on my mobile. I listen to mums voice, 'its only me darling' she always started a msg that way. Only me? She was my everything. nothing will ever be the same again. 

Someone posted this on fb tonight.  It has brought tears to my eyes as this was what it was like with mum.  We all had front door keys and would just let ourselves in.  I used to walk in and go and put the kettle on.  I would eat her biscuits and make myself something to eat when I was hungry.  My children did the same.  It was home, she was home.

After spending most of the evening falling asleep on the sofa I am now lying in bed wide awake. 

Every bloody night...

Elenium

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