Having a bad day

Thank you all.  I can't beleive I'm never gong to see her again, never gong to laugh with her again.  She was very peaceful at the end.  She knew we were there.  My eldest sister and brother were there too.  My good sister and other brother didn't get there in time but she knew they were coming. 

She wasn't in any pain.  Her breathing just got slower and slower and then she was gone.  No more suffering, no more torture of this awful disease.

Thank you to everyone who has given me support on here.  I truly could not have got through it without you all.

Love X

Dearest Elenium,

In the same way you have supported us all.

Much love x

You  3 have all had an amazing loving rapport and started a cascade of  some of us chipping in and helping, being helped. I don't think there could ever be another situation/forum where everyone could be so open, as open as you choose,  honest, loved and supported, supporting. So , thank you, for sharing and creating such a close loving friendship, not quite  the right word but I can't think if there is another right one at the moment.

Much love. Xxx 

Jenny and Elenium

Both of you have been an integral part of my journey. Who knows if we are alike, I know that without you both (and some others) I do not think i could have found the stength I did. You held me, before, during and after. I will steadfastly do the same for you. You were my Silent Night people, you and your dear mums are etched in my memory and form a part of who i am and you made and make it feel ok to just be whover i was or am. I offer you the same unconditional support for as long as you want or need. I will be here for you both and can silently hold your hand or weep with you. Be safe and be kind to yourselves. Much love to you my friends xxx

Struggling with the reality of Mum's horrific last days and not being there at the end.

Hug to all if a rather weak one.

Jx

Understood. Same with me too. Im blaming myself for not being there, but i can see clearly that it wasnt yr fault you werent there. Nothing i see will maje you better, if we coukd ask our mums, they would say 'darling you did everything and more' x

I think we all did so much for our mum's and they knew and appreciated it. They loved us and knew we loved them. None of us should be beating ourselves up over anything we did or didn't do. They knew and loved us. I was lucky that I was there but you two should not ever, ever feel guilty for not being there. You did everything you possibly could. Our mums would tell us not to feel guilty about anything. Leave that for those who did not do their best or the most they could.

My lovely friends, sending you hugs and love. X

They would say that.

Don't know if you remember in one of the Harry Potter movies Dumbledore extracted a memory from his head with a wand?  I need all the bad ones of Mums last horrific two weeks extracted fom my head.

Maisiemae I know your Mum had some horrors as I'm sure others have too.

Trying to sort funeral out. Realised Mums clothes may not work for her now due to her condition. The fluid build up.  Lady we spoke to today had alternatives though.

Tomorrow registering the death.

Jx

What am I saying...I know we all saw horrors. .

Sorry am mentally foggy at the moment. 

Jxxx

I am so sorry to hear this, Elenium, but you were there for her. I wish you well.

Take care, Anneteresa.