Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out.  I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down.  Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her.  My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later.  I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better.  My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help.  She had a major strop.  I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard.  I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up.  Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it.  But I feel even worse now.  I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else.  I just keep crying and feel so very very sad. 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    I am so sorry to hear this, I wish you well

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    I have read many of your posts on this thread and I'm so in awe of all you've managed to do for your mums so bravely.

    I'm so so sorry for your losses, my heart goes out to each one of you and I hope you manage to rest and take comfort in the clear and obvious love you shared with your precious mums.

    Can I make a suggestion?

    That you try to meet up in real life soon? I think you each might gain comfort from one another in the true understanding you obviously share.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Isitokay a good suggestion.

    I don't know what others think?


    I am in the midst of everything right now but when we are ready maybe we could meet out somewhere? 


    Jx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Probably around page 20 (ive no idea at all when other than i think around the time sue lost her dear Alan) i suggested once we were all in the same position (which i dreaded) we should see if we could meet up. How strange would that be. Would we have to type on our phones to communicate? I would b so nervous but i would love to. Of course our losses are so new and raw. I vote yes. X

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    I vote yes...

    For later.


    Jx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Count me in.

    Hugs to My Lovely Friends.

    Sue

    Xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I am really sorry. Feeling helpless is the wose part someties. My daughter, shes 32, has made the decision to get off pain meds.. the cancer has spread everywhere and she stays in bed all the time. So I cry and stare out the window. Helplessness is driving me crazy.  Its ok to sit on the sofa and cry.  You have to deal with grief somehow.  I pray you find rst and comfort. Maybe Mcdreamy makes you smile at least!!

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Rebebbs. McDreamy indeed! Im about to start final series. Your position is impossible. Heartbreaking.  We have found solace in each other as such similar positions. Im not a mother myself to humans but mum always told me if it was me in her position she would do anything. I really hope your daughter is in some way comfortable although god knows the mental strain? Plse dont cry alone. We are here albeit also bruised and battered and heartbroken x

  • Hi Rebebbs,

    I'm so sorry about your daughter.  I have no advice to offer but if you need to rant or be sad or anything we are here for you. 

    X

    Elenium

  • Mum's funeral is on the 28th.  Managed that ok without crying but went to Tesco and saw Persil on offer.  I thought to myself  "Oh, better get some for mum" then started to cry. Luckily my daughter was with me and managed to distract me.

    We've brought all her stuff home from the nursing home. Putting it all back was difficult. Quite a few tears were shed by me and good sister.

    My mum loved a scarf - she had dozens - and so does my youngest daughter. She was always trying to steal them when mum wasn't looking. It was a standing joke in our house.  She asked today if she could have all nanny's scarves.  She's took the lot.  It'll make mum smile knowing that she's finally got her hands on them.

    I keep getting a picture in my head of mum really laughing about something. She's got a big grin and her face is lit up. 

    I vote yes to meeting up.

    Elenium