Having a bad day

Dear Yantibee. Your Jill and you and the boys, probably without realising it spent time grieving with her, not that you didnt try and have some normality. im waiting for a train to hit me, did it miss me or am i still in battle mode? Of course im sad but i was expecting worse. It was in someways worse in the guilt ridden last days of wishing for the end for mum, and for me? Does it help knowing your loved one was suffering so much when alive. Is it true, there is a release. So many questions. Yr MIL and the boys their grandma. What confusion for them. As for Poppy, she is so different to MIL, another change at home, i imagine Pops is an integral member of yr family, faithful and loving. We will be here. My partner calls you the purple shoes man, he was so touched by yr support and my internet friends standing together in this way. X

Dear Yantibee what an amazing family you are ...you and your boys.

I'm thinking grief finds it's own route to us..and it starts before our loved ones have left us..?

Everyone will be different.

Elenium thinking of you and your Mum.  In fact I do think of you all amongst my own disarray at Mum's condition.

Anneteresa Chelsea Pensioners Hospital looks a lovely place glad he's there.

Maisiemae what kind of puppy are you getting? 

Bobles thanks for your kind comments...and Dziet. 

Sue how's things? 

Dad's mind is clearer now but it's cleared to find Mum dying how cruel is that.  He's talking more openly now.

I got back last night after long hospital stay with mum to find my sister's friends there with dad. We ate nibbles they washed up and put away. Half an hour of normality. .

Jx

Elenium - you are right. I do hope your mum is out of pain and distress and remember that she can hear you long after you cant understand her. My wise mum told me that. She was a carer for years xxx

Hi Elenium, Maisiemai is right, I played Bobs favourite music to him as well. That's the beauty of technology these days, everything is so accessible.

Hope the day is as good as it can be everyone 

Lesley x

So not a better woman than you Elenium, 

Interesting is a kind word, I do have such un charitable thoughts sometimes! Bob would laugh though my daughter and I offload to each other which is great, we were thinking buy one get one free on the funeral. It's no wonder there is a shortage of carers in this country the way she speaks to them, so rude, I wouldn't want to go to work each day and be spoken to like that, they are such tolerant patient ladies. I could go on but I won't .....

Take care of yourself x

Mum's really bad today.  She's got more pain but won't take anything extra.  The nurse said she can have injections instead but I don't know if she means injections or driver.  I need to speak to her more tomorrow. 

Mum's throat is so painful and she's really having problems swallowing. She's in a bad way. 

It's so crap.

Elenium it is so awful..

We are in a nightmare too.

Can't even say it all...

How does one recover?

Horror.

Jx

I can't bear it.

I sold mums house today. 8.5 hours of driving narrowly missing nasty accident. Mums watch is missing. House partially cleared. Cleaned, showed, sold, cried buckets, saw her neighbours, saw her husband in the home, his estranged daughter wants joint bank accoubt with him. No interest in 27 years, hello! Poa will stop that! God i miss her terribly. Wanted to call her so many times today. Jenny and Elenium my heart goes out to you both. Very unpleasant time translated to (fucking shit). Bearded Collie pup, slightly smaller than 'Dulux' dog xxx

Holding your hands. Tightly xxx