Having a bad day

I don't know maisiemae, I think it would be better if she didn't rally.   I don't want her to go through this any longer.  It's not fair.  I know that I'll be devastated when she goes but for her sake...

Mum was convinced that someone was standing next to her today.  My sister said that she was saying that last Saturday too.  I'd like to think that it was dad. 

Very sad tonight.

Elenium I was in the similar situation with Jill I didn't want her to go but I didn't want her to suffer anymore and it's heartbreaking I even felt guilty for thinking that if she died it would be a relief in a strange way but my heart goes out to you , a terrible position to be in watching a loved one try to fight this wretched disease 

Maisiemae, what a Beautiful gesture. You're an angel

Hugs xx

Elenium,

Alan said he kept seeing his Mum & his sister who had died in a road accident when she was 21over my shoulder. I told him they were waiting to take him to his son Mark who was killed on the roads in July 2015.

Hugs

Sue xx

If anyone gets a chance play Westlife's single "I'll See You Again" 

Hugs

Sue

Xx

Elenium. I sort of thought that but i dont want to make the mistake of assuming based on my experience and where i got to re mum as you may well not be there. Going with your lead and timing. The time i felt that i felt guilty but also a strange relief.  The fight became more an inevitable acceptance. But i savoured every minute of looking at her face and loving her xxx

Thank you everyone, I know that you all understand.  It's just so bloody awful.

They weighed mum today. She was just under 6 stone.  She was 8 and a half stone in August. 

No words, don't know what else to say or think today.

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Words just not enough 

X

Elenium. My sister and I have thought the same we don't want her to leave us but she is trapped in a body crumbling and shutting down.  Yesterday she said she'd had enough.  Today she said "I seem to be in some sort of hell" she sips water or has a spoon of ice cream.  She can't sit up or turn over in bed nurse's position her. Her eyes don't focus on you.is it the medication. .has she lost some sight? Her eyes are childlike.

Dad still v ill and we can't take him to her.  He didn't sleep again last night probably not tonight either. But he has started talking about mum...maybe his mind is a little clearer.

I feel unreal. I want my mum.  I don't want this suffering. ..I want Dad to see her when he's not full of germs....

Hugs to all.

Masiemae your offer lifted me thank you so much. 

Jx