Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out.  I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down.  Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her.  My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later.  I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better.  My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help.  She had a major strop.  I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard.  I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up.  Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it.  But I feel even worse now.  I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else.  I just keep crying and feel so very very sad. 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Thinking of you today and will be right by your side with all of our other friends on this group supporting you as best we can x

  • Maisiemae, thinking of you today. I'm wearing a bright green top in honour of your mum. Holding your hand tightly. 

    X

    Elenium

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hi Maisiemae,

    Am there in spirit with you today. I'm wearing bright blue for your lovely Mum, & you.

    Big Hugs & Love, 

    Sue xxx

  • I decided to come and see mum today.  I can't keep her away from germs now she's in the home and we'd  would rather I be here.  

    She's very sleepy today. I keep waking her up but she can only manage to keep her eyes open for a couple of minutes each time.  It looks like she's lost even more weight, if that's possible.  

    Not a good day today.  I feel like she's slipping away from me.

    Elenium

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Maisiemae I have a bright scarf on...

    Jx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    We are in a nightmare.

    Mums got to have dialysis. Dad hasn't slept for a week and is agitated. 


    I am with mum.


    Have asked for counselling as amnear the edge.


    Jx

  • Oh Jenny honey, something else for your poor mum.  Can't they do anything for your dad?  is he in hospital?

    Who have you asked for counselling from?  Your local hospice might be able to help.  I've been to three sessions now and although I wasn't sure if it would help, it has.  Hopefully it will help you too.

    You know you can tell us anything but if you would rather you can always message me privately.  I'd be happy to 'listen'

    Sending you a big hug. X

    Elenium

  • Oh Jenny,

    You've all been in a nightmare for a while, it's just got worse, unbelievably so and totally beyond your control. You can only do what you are doing which you do so amazingly. I hope the counselling will also trigger more support for you and your mum and dad, you so need it.

    Wish I could do more.

    X

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • Thinking of you Maisiemai.

    X

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Jenny - my day is nearly over. Im back in London tomorrow. If i can help plse say. Its a nightmare for you and at the heart is you and you mum and dad. Can you get emergency counselling or is that right now another task to be expected of you. Some BACP counsellors do emergency sessions at means tested level of cost. Look at bacp counsellors on the website - love to you x