Having a bad day

I'm supposed to be spending the day with mum tomorrow and have come down with a stinking cold.  If I don't go she'll be on her own all day (not even going to bother to ask the others) but if I do go she might catch it off me. I don't know what to do.

Its a tough one. As yr mum seems stable. Perhaps dont go as if mum gets the cold she will be worse. Ask yr mum? X

Ive seen mum. I didnt know whether to or not, it feels surreal. She looked sort of beautiful. Its not really her. Main service tomorrow at 5pm. Bright colours plse my friends. Yantibee i also wondered anout you back at work. Jenny, you really do rock and you are a rock! Elenium, hope you find the right answer - if only u cld rely on someone else tomorrow. Sue, kisses x

Hi Elenium, 

I can't tell you how to make it better, I'm sorry.  All I can say is let it out. Go primeval for a moment and cry it out.

You are human, yes strong, yes a mother, yes a wife, yes a daughter. You are also a woman going through hell. 

Once you have had your moment,  dry your eyes and breath. Be proud of all that you are managing to deal with,  you are undoubtedly amazing and you are loved, supported and above all appreciated. 

Warm wishes of hope to you and your loved ones in your hour of need.

Cm x 

Hello,

you are amazing and you are obviously a chip off your mum's block. Bless her sense of humour when she must be feeling so ill.

I don't know how you keep going with everything you have to do and not being well yourself. It was tough enough looking after 1 patient. 

Hope you all sleep well and things improve overnight.

Lesley x

Hi,

 I saw Bob the day before as well, said my goodbyes then and talked to him.gave me a sense of calm and peace. As you say, he  sort of looked  like him but then again didnt. Sorry if I'm not making sense.

Sock it to them tomorrow Maisiemai, you will make your mum so proud and you should be proud of yourself too.

Hugs to all.

Lesley x

Hi sue we'll it was ok lots of support and people who I know well there 

The day was busy( I am partner in a restaurant group) so kept very occupied for the day but driving home to an empty house was truly devastating, coming in to an empty house with no jill there with a smile a hug and a kiss was really really sad . Sat and had a bite to eat, flicked through the tv channels then now come to bed alone, classic FM on to chill me out but this part is very upsetting everyday with the prospect of another waking up with no jill by my side I think so far that's the worst bit, but work was fine thank you xx

How are you? And everyone? I keep reading crying getting cross and feeling heartbroken for you all it's just so so hard 

Maisiemae! Thinking about you xx purple shoes will be worn and I am cooking at one of the restaurants tomorrow so I will wear something to honour your precious mum xx 

I saw Jill for three consecutive days the weekend before the funeral which maybe a bit weird but I sat with her just crying then chatting she looked so beautiful and peaceful and although I knew she had gone I was and am so glad I got the chance to see her those last times it was very special x

Yantibee. Love the idea , purple shoes and humming Blind Boys from Alabama, God Put a Rainbow in the Clouds. (wonderful song). Thankyou.