I can’t believe it’s been about a month since the appointment where at best my husband has 10 years and worst 1.
It’s been a rollercoaster of emotions, forms and trying to find our breath. And there is still so much more to process and sort.
im starting to understand im deep in anticipatory grief, im waiting on referrals but the pain particularly at night often is consuming and can feel unbearable.
He’s my soul mate, we have strong attachment to each other and our lives revolve around each other. We’ve never wanted or needed anything else and the pain of losing that at all and especially any time soon is so so hard to think, accept or feel.
Our families aren’t the typical social norm types meaning large parts of this we are coping by ourselves and made family.
We have more appointments and hopefully support coming our way but the emotional side for me cuts so deep and often in such unexpected ways. Tonight is been particularly hard
