Hi guys,
Thanks so much for your support and kind words, I’ve had a few problems accessing the forum, and I’m a retired IT teacher, I’m sure it will all become clearer.
I probably do need some counselling but don’t get much time to myself as our daughter and 4 year old granddaughter live with us but I might try contacting someone when I get some time to myself, or maybe contact Doctors.
A letter came from his oncologist stating his prognosis, read so hard in black and white, saying without treatment at best a few months with treatment 1 to 2 years, pity he didn’t give him chemo 6 months ago. I’ve kept it from him, right now he knows his time is limited so I don’t think he needs to see it. He’s very pragmatic, acts as if there is nothing wrong, actually acting normal, I don’t want it to affect his mood, he says he wants to enjoy life and has said that talking about what is ahead isn’t for him, he doesn’t want to feel depressed with no hope.
Wish I could be like him, but I know I’m struggling, it’s obvious our daughters suffering too.
We moved down from Cheshire to Devon over a year ago, apart from treatment at Clatterbridge and recovery time, we’ve been living down here. I asked him as we walked along Teignmouth seafront today if he had any regrets about moving here, a definitive ‘No’ he said it was one of the best things he had ever done, we’re 15 minutes from Dartmoor and the coast, just wish we had more time.
Thanks again, Budge
