Hi, I have looked through discussions but I could not find anything, But i am sure there are lots of carers who have felt them same. My partner has Stage 4 cancer and is disabled. She on a Management plan as it can not be cured. We have not been given a time limit and only been told that there are some ladies going to the clinic for ten years with the same condition as my partner.
I do the same things everyday, Get up have a cuppa or two. wait till she gets up make her breakfast then help her shower. She watches tv then goes back to bed for an hour I prepare her lunch and clean the house and do her washing. I make the tea.
She will stop up until 3am sometimes watching rubbish on tv ?
It is the same thing every day the only other thing we do is once a month go to the doctors for a blood test before I take her for her injections at the cancer suite the following day.
I feel terrible because I love her so much but I need to change things. We can't go out because we are shielding ( and will be for some time) I cant take her out in the car because she needs the toilet every half hour.
I just feel so guilty for feeling trapped and it will be like this forever.
I try to get out in the garden and keep it tidy. But its just doing the same things.
She does encourage me to go out but lockdown stopped all that. I do go out for bits of shopping I have a full face air fed professional respirator. But people look at you like you are some kind of idiot for wearing one. They dont understand? I am ex forces and was trained in NBC so I know all the drills.
Just dont know if I can keep doing this forever.
Got to go now she is awake 12pm so to start again ( Sonny and Cher play on the radio)
thanks for listening to my mutterings xx
