My mum has recently been diagnosed with non Hodgkin lymphoma and is coming up for her 3rd chemo session. Due to the current lockdown I have moved back in to help as dad is not alert enough to be the main carer. I am recovering from a severe and long bout of depression caused by being made redundant so am not working. My aunt has just passed away (my dads sister) and as mum will be is likely to be at her worst in between sessions i am not going to the funeral as mum will need someone with her...and obviously i don't expect dad not to go. And of course we have the current lockdown situation too. I am finding it all increasingly hard to cope with all of this. I have a couple of really good friends who are great support to me over the phone. I have 3 brothers who because of the lockdown cannot visit or help mum other than phone support. And today she is feeling so emotional that she doesn't want to speak to any of them so I am having to field the calls. Is it normal to feel like my whole world is crashing down around my ears? I am so aware that mum is the priority and feel guilty even asking the question.
