I wake up crying because I've been dreaming that my husband is dying then reality hits me in the face looking at my husband who is slowly disappearing with end stage liver cancer I just go out of sight cry then put my armour on . Then my nightmare of a day starts he's confused cos he's not had his bowels open ,he's in pain pressure on his bladder catheter not draining properly ,his legs feet and stomach swollen with fluid he's so uncomfortable ,the worst bit is looking into his eyes he knows he's dying
