Feeling Very anxious, partner having chemo in hospital being tested for Covid

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Hi

just looking for some support and reassurance really however uncertain it might be. My partner has been in hospital for last 2 days after being admitted with high temperature (38.5). This was at the end of her 3rd chemo cycle with the 4 th due the next day after going into hospital. She was immediately put in a room of her own off a Covid ward and has been tested for Coronavirus. We still are waiting for results. She was diagnosed in January with T4 n2 tumour and M1 because it has spread to ovaries and also has a secondary. She is having Neo adjuvant chemo fortnightly. I couldn’t go into the building with her and of course are not allowed to visit. I am desperately worried and have started to have panic attacks again as I have in the past. I have been isolating with her so just feel at a loss as to what might have happened. I’m praying this to do with her chemo only but are petrified it might be the virus. I have family supporting me by phone but I feel utterly alone and pretty terrified. Can anyone suggest anything that might help me calm and begin to take control better please. Thanks for reading. 

  • Hi I'm sorry to hear about your partner, it's bound to be very worrying for you especially not being able to visit. I'm seeing it from the other side as I am recovering from the virus, very slowly, and I can see my husband's anxiety and it makes me feel worse seeing him so worried. I have to admit that I've been anxious too and my saving grace has been online puzzles and Netflix. Someone suggested meditation so I meditated on a cake for a full 5 seconds before eating it. Seriously though, if I can meditate on an image of a waterfall, sunset or similar for just a few seconds it does seem to help. There are lots of Youtube pages with videos and music if you like that sort of thing. I use them as a distraction method and Classic FM gets a lot of airing, also sitting in the sun in my little garden helps enormously. Making lists of things to do always helps me to take control and, as I can't do anything at the moment, the distraction and relaxation methods are my list, but still that list provides me with the control I need to calm my anxiety.

    Thinking of you, 

    LoobyLou
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    FormerMember in reply to LoobyLou49

    Thanks for replying. I’m feeling a bit calmer at the moment though still waiting for results. I love that you could meditate on a cake it certainly made me smile!