Awake and up all night

Everything you're feeling is understandable. The fear you feel we all share at points throughout the days. We're sending you all our love and support.️

Hiya hon  You do right, falling asleep - I think your body clock is telling you it's time to catch up with some zeds.

I've been to see my eldest this morning, but I'm gearing up for a nap later on, hopefully.

The exposed tree roots looking like a warthog made me smile - nice one kiddo xxx

Hi Alan  Keep trying to look forward lad. That's what I tell my OH to do when he's down and upset - we can't reverse what's happened but we can push forward.

That's what you're doing now, and hopefully your new consultant will give you renewed hope and get you back on track.

Sending you best wishes and strength xxx

I don't know how to tell my parents and siblings what is happening to me, it will destroy my sister Amy my other couple of siblings will not care it means that they will inherit a lot more money. Amy and my parents live quite far away from me I can't tell them over the phone. If southmead hospital hadn't lost my details and I was checked on a regular basis I wouldn't be in this position. The last 4 years have been hell honestly I have wished to die living with constant chronic pain is pure hell I don't have any friends no girlfriend I couldn't be more lonely im not going to tell my family ive decided to go abroad 

Adz, sweetheart, I'm so sorry to hear about your troubles, but you've made a start by sharing them here. Your next step is to share them with your family. Would it be possible to stay with your parents for a while, after you've told them everything that's happened? Believe me hon, your parents and Amy will be more distraught if you go abroad and leave them in the dark. I'm sure they'll want you with them, to hold and comfort you and help each other through this awful period. Tell them everything you've told us, and together you'll be able to support each other and make plans for the future.

It's worth a try sweetheart, as going abroad right now won't solve anything. Take a step back, gather your thoughts and have a rethink. You could also ring the Macmillan support helpline for further advice. Remember, you're not alone and we'll try to support you too.

Sending you warmest hugs and strength. You can get through this but you need your family right now xxx

Hi Adz. You've nothing to lose by telling them. You may be surprised by their response. I think when we are at our lowest we picture the future in the.most negative way. You need your family more than ever. Gill's right. She usually is. Give the Macmillan helpline a call. Gill's right agy when she says we're all here to support you. Posy on here as much as you want.

Sorry about the typos.

No worries about those, our kid.

I know not all families are like the Waltons from learned, bitter experience, but most are more resilient than given credit for.

I hope Adz will get in touch with his really soon xxx

Hi Adz

I'm sorry to hear about your troubles. I'm with the others and think you should share with your family. I'm sure your parents would want to know if you're unwell, no matter how old you are you're still their child. 

H

I am sorry to hear that. Sending you hugs. xx