Awake and up all night

Hi Gill

Once again I fell asleep after my tea but have come to bed now! What fascinating stuff you’ve found out about your own family history-I’d love to have something like that in my past! Seems you’ve come from very noble stock. I do have my mum’s family tree which was handwritten and handed down, and claimed we came directly from Robert the Bruce which I took with a pinch of salt, but we researched on the internet and went through it all and turns out it’s actually true-everything checked out.

My OH has very mixed ancestry, which we have traced back to a black slave sold at Liverpool docks, so the dna shows a lot of African connections. He was sold to a wealthy landowner in Staffordshire and ended up running away and marrying his owner’s daughter and having a family with her in England.  We had been told in the family that the roots came from South Africa and the family had a diamond mine, but I imagine it was very taboo at the time having an interracial marriage so maybe the family wanted to hide that part! Then we discovered through military records that an ancestor had gone to India when it was in the Empire and married a Portuguese lady so there was that thrown into the mix too. Research has kind of stalled now as it’s difficult to find the records from overseas.

I don’t think I would do past life regression again…the lady was lovely and she said she’d only failed to regress someone once but I was very sceptical and I think I was overthinking and expecting it not to work, so I didn’t really get anything out of it. It was very calming, but I do remember tears running down my face during the session. I felt I had gone back to Roman times, although I was a young Greek woman living in Rome. I so wanted to be in Europe in a more recent life!

The spiritual affinity is an interesting concept and I feel that’s true. I can’t explain quite how I felt, even the first time I went to Krakow-it just felt very familiar to me in some way. I’d not ever want to live there though-I just found the language too difficult.

I have lived in Russia though, when I was studying in university there, and found the language much easier to deal with! Scottish people do tend to find it easier to speak Russian than English folk, as a lot of the sounds are similar in words like “loch”. I have been told I speak Polish without an accent, and Russian. I once got pulled off a tram in Russia for fare dodging(!) and was trying to explain (in Russian) that I was British but they didn’t believe me!! 

I’ve had an interesting life, even if I haven’t got any interesting ancestry stories.

Sarah xx

i had a text not long ago saying that they are looking for thr right couler im wuddering if I should have a novel buddy .form macmillan? 

Wow Sarah! You and your OH do have an interesting ancestry and the black slave marrying his boss's daughter would make a great book. I'd certainly read it as it would be better than Gone With the Wind. I wish I had a hand written family tree to look at - I think you should now be known as Sarah the Bruce as it's got quite a ring to it. I hope others here might have some tales to tell too.

On another note I've just seen Doreen's post mentioning a Macmillan novel buddy, but I don't know about that. Do you know hon? xxx

Thanks so much for the explanation Sarah, and I hope Doreen reads it too xxx

Macmillan have something called a buddy scheme, Gill. Buddies are volunteers who undergo training, and are then paired up with someone who is looking to have someone for support to talk to. 

The buddy scheme can be really good to help people who are struggling with loneliness and isolation, and, once you have a “buddy” paired up with you, this person will phone you up weekly to have a chat. Usually you get this support for something like 8-12 weeks. They are not trained counsellors though. They are there to provide emotional support to someone who can empathise with what they are going through and provide a friendly listening ear. It’s a scheme that is organised and applied for via Macmillan, not the nhs. I’m aware from other posts that Doreen did have a buddy but I think that contact may have finished now. What I’m not sure about is whether or not you can apply to have another buddy and do this again, so that would be a question for Macmillan as you would need to apply for it.

Sarah

Not sure what happened there-my reply posted multiple times so I hope it’s successfully here now but not several times!

Sarah the Bruce has quite the ring about it don’t you think?

Sarah xx

Your post is ok now lass, so Doreen should be able to read it.

Yes, I like it and it sounds like you mean business - maybe add it to your signature on the banner 

I wish there was a laughing “react”on here! 

I hope you’re going to settle down tonight in good time Gill, to try and get some sleep as I know you’ll be anxious about tomorrow’s appointment. I’ll be around for a while probably because of my nana nap at tea time but I’ve got a couple of emails to write so I’ll be doing that and maybe find something to watch in a bit. 

Big hugs and all the best for tomorrow, and tell your OH that a very important descendant of the Scottish king is sending him a hug too!

Sarah xx

I certainly will as he likes getting messages via myself. He'll love that one! And thank you lass, I've deliberately stayed awake all day and once care time's done I'll get my head down. Night night and sleep well lovey xxx

Trouble sleeping last chemotherapy tomorrow and I should be so happy but im emotional cant sleep- husband is worried about next step for me which is surgery then after that is the unknown of the next steps i don't want to wake him as hes sleeping for once but im wide awake crying just don’t know what to do with myself!