Awake and up all night

I might have to have some meds tonight to help. My brain is already starting to whirl hehe xx

Thank you. I will think about taking one x

Jamie, take the meds tonight but make sure you don't sleep in hon! xxx

I think I will have to. Only taken one so far, and then my niece turned up at the door another story but have not spoken in over 2 years and now my sister wants to come back in contact which is just another level of crap haha so yes a few things whirling around and just thinking they easily got rid of me and didnt want me when I was well so why you want me whilst cancer. Xx

You can choose your friends but not your family. 

I hope you get some sleep tonight.

H 

I know but after my psychology sessions 2 years ago. I had put all those feelings to bed and now bang here we are again. But for now the important thing is me, my OH and our kids. The rest can take a back seat whist I try and managed tomorrow. 

I am so lucky I have the support in here to help me through it too. So thank you all xx

Oh dear. There's nothing like family to bring strife sometimes, exactly what I was alluding to at my end in an earlier post.

You've got enough to cope with right now, so don't be drawn into what others want if it doesn't suit your agenda. I'd just say, not right now - I'll be in touch eventually. Concentrate on yourselves first, get the next couple of days behind you and then decide what you'd like to do. It's taken over 2 years to make a move so let them wait some more. xxx

PS Fab advice on the roast taties - I've never tried using red spuds x

I thought that when you said earlier. Didn't want to pry so thought you will weigh it up and do what you need to do for you! 

I totally agree and said I need time to process and I am not rushing my choices or actions at present. So for now it's getting my self back on my feet and stronger to return to work in 4 weeks if I can. 

Red potatoes all the way!!! I never roast white ones in fact I never use white potsoes for mash either and use a electric whisk to mix once mashed...cant do lumpy mash haha xx

You do what you want to do love, which is exactly what I'm going to with that certain person who brings nothing except upset to us.

I can't abide lumps in mash and always use loads of milk, butter and a whisk to beat the beggars out. We talk about some odd stuff here xxx

I like the random stuff. It just means we can talk aboit the sad stuff, the happy things and all the bits in between. 

I am going to give myself time to process and then make a choice if to talk to my sister or not after this week xx