Awake and up all night

Good morning Leocat and a very warm welcome to our ever expanding group  

I had a quick read up on your condition, and found it to be highly curable with excellent success rates in the early stages, which indeed you had. With your recent scan and blood results also being clear, that bodes well too. However, your concerns are telling you the obvious thing to do is to get checked out as soon as possible, not only to put your mind at rest, but also to give yourself the biggest chance of avoiding further surgery or spread. I urge you to do this my friend as you've already been there and know it's the best course of action.

I'm not going to preach Leocat, but I guess you know I can't condone your use of alcohol or recreational drugs. These things aren't a substitute for loneliness and many programmes exist to get you off them, as the former can kickstart cancer again. My OH and myself both drank and smoked before he got cancer, but these habits got kicked into touch well over a year ago and neither of us miss them, plus we've saved a small fortune.

Have a think about how you'd like to turn your life around for all the best reasons, as it can be done and the help is there if you reach out. You've made a great start by joining Macmillan and no need to be lonely, as we're all friends here and help and support each other whenever we can. I wish you nothing but the best and am sending you virtual hugs xxx

Here at 4am, got work tomorrow but yeah. As tired as I am during the day, here I am, up and awake.

Good morning Gill, thank you for replying to me , I know the damage I do to my body and I know I have to live better . I'm going to get checked out , starting with GP this morning. I do have my mum and my girlfriend and good friends but sometimes they find it hard to understand which is why I reached out to here for others that have been through what I've been through x

Hi Leo cat

I'm sorry that you find yourself here and that you have new worries.

I can't say any more than Gill H has said but I hope you seek medical help.

H 

Hi Toastie

Sorry that you're so tired and you've got to go to work. I hope you manage to get through the day.

H 

Hello again Leo cat

Further to my earlier reply it's good to see that you've contacted your GP. Let us know how you get on.

H 

Hi Linda  

In case I can't do this tomorrow, sending you the very best of everything for your upcoming appointment sweetheart. Everything crossed for the best possible outcome xxx

Oh bless you thanks Gill. Hopefully it will be ok but it’s always stressful even though it's two and a half years since my diagnosis!

Linda xxx

Hi Leocat and it's great to hear you sounding more upbeat and positive. Also good to hear that you've got support from your family and friends, whom I'm sure have got your back.

There are usually a few seasoned night owls around in the early hours, so if sleep is giving you the slip, drop in for a chat at any time you please as we all understand what you've been through. xxx

I think it'll take a good while for the stress to disappear completely Linda, if ever, but it's bound to ease off as time goes on.

We had a dose of it this morning at ENT clinic, but the good news was that now OH is over a year post surgery, his appointments have been extended to every two months instead of six weeks. Those extra two weeks make a big difference and I'm hoping you come away tomorrow with equally good news. Try for a restful sleep tonight lovely xxx