Awake and up all night

Nice to see this and to realise 'm not alone in my sleeplessness. The exhaustion is unreal though .

My husband had stage 4 pancreatic cancer, he's either like a raging bull all night in steroids or very asleep. I feel like I have the weight of the world on me mentally( and physically to sone extent). I try every type of relaxation, spelling tablets, magnesium, birthday frustration, now CBD drops and I just don't sleep. I'll have maybe 2 or 3hrs in broken bits but I can't function. I have a neurological condition which needs sleep and a young child, I'm so utterly dead from tiredness I can't even think anymore. I know it's pure physiologicall stress which is crippling me.

I need to find ways, ways to get through this new life, ways to deal with my husband's cancer, he us a"bad patient" always had been over everything, so makes things much harder, it's the total lack of respite and inability to get away ever, I'm mentally in the him as the time as my husband doesn't seem to have very good adult skills for himself so it all goes wrong...I tried letting him look after himself a bit more and he had a steroid induced mania episode. If welcome any suggestions of how to get that space.

Sorry I'm exhausted. It's a bit if a ramble.i guess I'm just a bit lost right now. I'm sure several of us are currently. 

Thanks for reading

Hi 

Sorry to hear of your worries & lack of sleep. Have you a friend or family member who can support you & your husband, maybe give you some time to yourself?

Come here & offload as often as you want, there's some good listeners around.

H 

Morning all 

I was up at 4:25 this morning, I've had a cuppa and caught up with some TV.

I have an appointment with my gynae oncologist this afternoon in Dover, just a check up.

H 

Morning Helen.

I've been unable to log in, due to a technical fault, since yesterday. I woke up around 5 and got back in - frustration over

Good luck with your appointment today hon xxx

Gill H said:

Good luck with your appointment today hon xxx

Thanks Gill

H 

Gill H said:

I've been unable to log in, due to a technical fault, since yesterday. I woke up around 5 and got back in - frustration over

This certainly isn't the best forum to use.

H 

Good luck for your meet up with junior Steve. If you share the same SOH, you'll get along famously xxx

I thought my phone was playing up Helen, then discovered I'd been blaming the wrong piece of tech!

Seems like it's been sorted now xxx

 Sbird hope your appointment goes smoothly. 

Naturally because his name is Bruce, the greeting will be "G'day Bruce ".

Hopefully Newcastle can get in the semi final, a home draw with Fulham!  Fingers crossed anyway.  They played a blinder last night, but if Richarleson had a bit of luck,  it could have been so different!