My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Awww Rosemary, so sorry you had to miss the weekend I know how much you were looking forward to it. I hope your dogs are now recovered. Take care dear friend.

Ailsa, so glad you enjoyed the weekend. Hope to meet with you again soon.

Today is Ray's birthday. Oh how I wish he was here so I could spend the day with him and let him know how much I live him. But he can't be so I shall just have to hope that he knows how much I love and miss him.  Ooooh I hate this life of bereavement.  Better start getting used to it though because it isn't going to change.  Sorry for the miserable post but just needed to get those thoughts out of my head. (Thank you for being here for me).

I hope everyone has the best day they can x x

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Morning.  Very difficult day for you Patricia.  Sending you hugs and we will get together again very soon.  Take care.  Ailsa xxx

Hi all

It has been a long time since i last posted on here, I went back to work and it has just got busy, the longer i left it the more posts there would be to catch up on, so I left it.. So sorry again but I haven't read back, except a couple of posts.

Rosemary sorry you couldn't come this weekend it was really nice meeting up with new faces and the few I had met in Liverpool in feb. I don't think you were at liverpool so its a shame you didn't manage to make it to the spa.

I am sitting on my bum trying not to do too much today and I am thinking about going to bed for a nap soon. Night shift starts at 8.30, oh the joy. I hate night shifts. I will loose a week in work and sleep and still be alone at the end of it with no one to share with.

I have my cat back from the cattery, he is pleased and has sat next to me all afternoon.

for those with difficult days ahead, take care

becky

Evening all, thank you for missing me girls, I missed you all too. Geordie is much better, got to the bored and wants to go out and play stage but officially I should keep him in another few days to be sure he's clear. Kofi, cross fingers, doesn't seem to be getting it but will probably wait until another inconvenient moment. Couldn't believe it Thursday night and then Friday morning poor little G was all shivery and very clingy so must have been feeling rough, I couldn't have left him even if there were soloutions to be had, I would have been worried about him certainly for the first 24 hours. Hey ho, animals and children eh? Sounds like it was a brilliant "do" though so maybe that will have to be a return destination (not sure if anywhere has had us back twice yet?). (Does anyone else find that you can't start a new paragraph on here? It keeps bouncing back to the end of my last sentence, very annoying!) Just sitting and dabbling here a bit waiting to hear if my friend has managed to book us in for Body Balance tonight - to be honest I really can't be bothered, 8.15 to 9.00 is just too late, they do a morning one but Liz can't do that. Patricia I hope you are ok after your emotional day yesterday, I don't know if these feeling ever do go away, we just miss them so much and I think the whole of the life we had before and took for granted would go on into our old age. Ray knows how much you loved him and still do, he will always be at your side, looking lovingly at you as he always did xxxx Becky I hope your week goes well, I don't think I could do nights, although I seem to spend a lot of them awake these days, but I don't think anywhere would want me to doze of for an hour or two here and there, bet it's lovely having your cat back with you. Going to post this now as any moment Liz might call and I will have to get changed and show willing, catch up with you all again soon xxxxxx

Hello everyone

Finally managed to find you all, I am not enjoying this site now. 

Rosemary, glad to hear Geordie dog is doing better.  I certainly understand our devotion to our pets.  Mine are so important to me. 

Patricia, sending loads of hugs and prayers to you today.  These days are always emotional, that never seems to stop does it?

September is always a busy one at work and I am finding it is really hard when there is no one to help at home, really missing that person to go and gas up the car or pick up milk or whatever needs doing.  But work is settling down a bit, just the ton of paper work to sort out.

and I am still swimming

Well i'm in but i've forgotten to read the posts , so i'll just say hi  and yippppeeeeee i'm back xxxxxx

Oh Ailsa, that is a beautiful song that usually has me in tears too, but if you can only think of Chris singing it then it must be 100 times harder for you. I have a wonderful section on my ipod, Sam called it my "music to commit suicide to" as it is all the heart renching, meltdown songs, I can play it and listen to them normally, but most of them are the ones that catch you unexpectedly in the car so driving always becomes more challenging doesn't it? My quickest route to this thread is "My Account - Favourites - Coping with Loss and then click on latest post on the thread when it comes up" don't know if that helps or if anyone knows a quicker route - or if anyone knows how to get paragraphs????? This is driving me maaaaaaad!