My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Dear Dot, No words will help but I am thinking of you,

Sending huge ((((((((((Hugs )))))))))) May your dad R.I.P

Love Teri

Dear Dot

So sorry for your sad loss.  It is devistating at any time, but at this time of year it seems to bring an extra tug.  May you have the strength to get through and the thought that he is now at peace. 

Lots of love and many many ((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Pam xx

Dear Dot

So sorry for your sad loss.  It is devistating at any time, but at this time of year it seems to bring an extra tug.  May you have the strength to get through and the thought that he is now at peace. 

Lots of love and many many ((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Pam xx

Oh Dot I am so so sorry to hear your news.  My thoughts are with you and your family.  Sending you a big hug  xxxxxxxxxxx

Thank you girls for your kind thoughts and ((hugs)).......Dad did not have any pain and it was all so peaceful........... xx

Dot, so sorry to hear your sad news.  Sending a huge trans-atlantic hug to you.    No words will help but we are all here for you.

Dear Dot

so sorry about yor dad. glad that it was peaceful for him.

Big HUGS

becky

Dot, so sorry to hear about your Dad xxxxx Thoughts with you and your family xxx

Morning everyone.  Fiona I will be thinking about you tomorrow on the 2nd anniversary of you losing Derek.  Take care of yourself.

Dot, I posted on your thread but just wanted to send my condolances to you and your family once again.  Take care as well.

I hope everyone one else is doing okay this weekend.  I feel like it is far too busy between trying to catch up now the snow has thawed and get things done before the snow comes again.  I also think my oven has broken this morning.  the grill at least is broken - it is a good thing I have planned to go to Becky's for Christmas dinner.  I have also had a near miss in my van - another van driver going too fast round a bend towards me has caught my wing mirrow and sent it into orbit.  I have no mirror at all on the drivers side now and it is unbelievably difficult to drive a van with no wing mirror on the drivers side.  I don't have a rear view mirror.  Hopefully I will be getting a replacement tomorrow but it really shock me up.  I kept think that he was only an inch away from hitting the van itself with Declan & I in it.  I am really not good with things go wrong as I just miss Chris even more.

Like I said - I hope you are all okay today.  We all seem to be struggling a bit right now.  I niavely expected to handle this time of year a whole lot better this year and that is definately not happening.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Ailsa, how terrible for you. That must have been very scarey especially having Declan with you. Some drivers are sooooo inpatient. Take care of yourself and try not to go into super busy mode again.

Fiona, thinking of you this weekend and sending (((((((hugs)))))))))

As for me, I am in apathy mode. Oh I am doing a few things but my heart is not in it. Don't know why. Seems I am going through the motions of life with no direction or purpose. I was speaking to a friend last night whose husband died suddenly at the roadside of a heart attack 15 years ago. She too is feeling very much the same. She understands totally if I say how I feel because it is how she still feels. We don't speak often and rearely speak of our husbands together, but when we do it all seems so similar (except the circumstances of death).  Anyway, enough of my rambling. I should be happy as my first grandchild is due in 3 weeks (or anytime from now). The new parents are soooo excited. I can't wait to see them hold their child safely in their arms. I am actually at high anxiety level until that moment arrives. I pray that things go well because if they don't then I think dil will go to pieces totally. I am also worried about dad's CT result which he is due to get on Tuesday I think. He wants to go alone but I am in fear that they will give him terrible news. Mmmm...... maybe this is all why I feel so apathetic and down. See, I have diagnosed myself lol. (or maybe it is post viral lethargy and apathy). Oh shut up Patricia. hehehe

Anyway, big, big hugs to everyone who needs them (oooh that would be everyone then).

Have the best day you can everyone.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

p.s. Niece in law has once again demanded top know when I am going to stay with them in London. lol. So nice to be wanted hahahaha