My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Ha ha, love the pic Sue

Welcome home Gayle, I am sure it was Wully re assurring you xxx

I am on my way to bed but just watched the Jeremy Beadle programme and now in tears and having bit of a meltdown about going away tomorrow. I am so looking forward to it and spending more time getting to know boyfriend but now also just want to be going away with Paul and the kids like we used to x Like Gayle said we have got to accept this is our life now but tonight I dont want it and want the old one. So unfair!!! Sorry rant over, not had a good cry for a long time so maybe I need this.

Night everyone

Helen xxx

Sending hugs to Helen , even though i've text too but have another hug aswell (((hug))) Gayle i'm sure it was Wully , maybe "letting you go" . I'm going to try and book my trains later but i am confused to the london ones (i know i know ) but the trains from chessie go into st pancres , but the directions to the hotel are form lkings cross and i know your going into euston , now i know ther is a easy anser to all this but as this is me !! i'm not sure what it is , so i am relying on someone to tell me the best way to do it . I've never "done " london before so i dont want to book the wrong thing and if i can mess up a day return fron York , i'm sure i can mess this up with no trouble . HELP ... i'm at work till 7 tonight but will try !! and book after that l . Have a good day everybody xx Great picture Sue xxx

Lynne xxx

Morning all

It's ages since I posted anywhere so thought I'd start here with some much needed ((((hugs)))).

Helen - I hope I'm not too late and that you've not yet set off on your hols?  A ((((bug hig)))) for you.....Have a lovely time - and remember - we cannot change what has gone before and it's too difficult to change what has yet to be.....So we have to learn to accept things as they are..............'...what will be will be...'

Gayle - so pleased you and your boys enjoyed your hols - 40 degrees?  Phew - I'm melting just thinking about it!!!  I'd rather sit at the top of a mountain in the cool air!!!  Or in the air con!!!

Sue - my lovely friend...where would we be without your wonderfully appropriate pictures??  You can always strile the right note of uplifting or funny as suits the moment!!!

Lynne, Patricia, Rosemary, Judi - you all have things to say to jolly everyone along - but what of yourselves??  You never say how you are - and it's often what is left unsaid that gives the game away!!  We all have difficult days - and I'm the worst culprit of all for hiding behind a 'happy, smiley' face........That's one of the reasons I've not been around so much!!!!  My 'happy, smiley' face cracked and I couldn't get it back on again!!!!!  Ho-hum......guess I'll have to try again..........

I also wish to add my welcome to the newcomers to this thread although I know that some of you have been in our Mac-world for a while.....Take heart from what these dear ladies have to say - they are all very wise and supportive............

I'm so sorry that I missed Manchester on Saturday - that's when my 'jolly' face left me completely - but that's another story and I won't dwell on it!!!  I would feel terrible blasting off about my other half in such a place as this!!!!  I will endeavour to meet up with you all sometime soon...........

On a happier note - we have now finished the dining room - a painful experience (in more ways than one) and my office is beginning to shape up into what i want and need......

Love and lots of comforting (((((bug higs))))) to you all

Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Morning xx

Thanks for the texts Lynne and the hugs Dottee xx

I am ok this morning, sorry about that last night. Dont know where it came from!! The sun is shining and I m almost ready to go!!! Like you say what will be will be so I m waiting to see lol!!!

Dottee we would have listened to all your blasting off!! Thats what we re here for xxx Maybe next time x Glad your house is comng on xx

Anyway bye my lovely penguins, what would I do without you xxx Have a good Monday

Helen xxx

Morning everyone -- Whew I was complaining last week about being down + nothing happenning, then this week I went to Tenby to see my old work mates + neighbours, thursday it was shopping + cleaning, Friday St Fagans for the day with the grandson who was still full of go long after mine had left me, Saturday I met up in Cheltenham with an old macmillan pal who I met on this site when hubby was ill ( thank goodness for macmillan ) + yesterday it was our turn to have grandson again -- wish he'd learn to sleep beyond 6 in the morning. I read about your meets with envy -- is there anyone near Cardiff or even Bristol ? Sue love the pics I am 1 shattered gran this morn Love + hugs to everyone as Dottee said we have to accept + go forward -- but do get those v down days still xxxx Lynda

Hi, Lynda

i live just north of bristol, about 5 miles from the old severn crossing. Perhaps we could meet!

sue xx

Hello everyone - thanks for the warm welcome - and thanks for the smiles you've created for me! (Esepcially Lynne with your arrangements - does sound like you jogs around the park though doesn't it?). 

Helen have a lovely time - hopefully another one of those anticipation moments, where the deed is actually not anywhere near as bad the thought - infact this deed will hopefully give you big relief that it is ok and you do enjoy yourself xx

I won't say much just now - feel like I need to read a bit more to get an idea about you all if you know what I mean - I don't want to jump in both feet first.  Hopefully I'll get to meet with lots of you in October though.  In the meantime I intend to keep popping in and get to know you gradually!

Take care, Mandy xx

Welcome Mandy I know you will find a lot of support here.  Just a very quick hello this morning.  Welcome home Gayle and Helen enjoy your much deserved holiday.  I know I have to start taking notes on what everyone is doing but this little brain does not focus well anymore.  No pics of the whales they are very hard to get as they come up so quickly but we saw more yesterday as we stopped at a lookout.  I have seen whales on a special boat in Gaspe before and following our ship in Alaska but this has been so amazing to see them while just driving down the road.  I will continue to try to get pics to post though.  I did get a photo of a duck chasing a butterfly, that was funny.  We are going out later this afternoon, not rushing around every day and going for dinner at a restaurant a friend of mine recommended with a spectacular view.  Sending you all lots of hugs.

Bren

Dot, you are such a lovely person and you always give such support. You need our support too and we are happy to give it. meltdowns can happen at any time and they hit us when we least expect them.

Helen have a fab time hun. You wil only do what is right, you know that. Hugs.

Lynda, you sound so busy at the moment. Don't forget to rest a little too. It would be lovely if you and Sue could meet up wouldn't it?

Mandy I am glad you are happy with the penguins. they are so lovely and make everyone so welcome. What would we do without them.

Bren, you sound like you are having a fun time. I love the story about the duck and the butterfly. quack quack.

Ailsa I hope you are not overtired following your removal trip.

Take care dear penguins and have the best day that you can.

Love and angel hugs to you all x x x Patricia x x x

Dear Patricia - thank you for your kind words about me....The past few weeks haven't been so much about 'meltdowns' as trying to avert World War 3 at my house!!!  However, now that everything is just about back in place - with more room to move than I imagined we'd have and we are a lot calmer and happy again!!!

I'm itching to get my craft things out and sorted into what to keep and what to let go.  So I can have a shopping spree you understand!!  I got chatting to someone that works in our local hospice and I have decided to donate some materials to them  and also to the hospital ward - where several patients make cards etc to pass time (these are then sold to visitors to raise funds for 'extras' for the ward).  I have far too much 'stuff' anyway and now nowhere to keep it all - so it must go!!!  That is my next 'rainy day' job - to sort and box up stuff!!!  Trouble is I can't resist buying new bits and then only use about half before I get the next lot!!!  Hey ho...............My loss will be someone else's gain............

Love and (((((hugs)))))) to you all

Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx