I lost my husband almost 10 months ago, I just feel so empty and numb. I’ve tried to keep busy and putting on the mask to friends and family. The last 2 days I feel as if I’ve hit a brick wall, I’ve done nothing but cry. I miss him so much, he was only 61 years old, we had only been together 5 years and we were soulmates, we felt we’d known each other forever. I am so tired and just feel I’ll never feel happy again.
Yes I am really upset and disconcerted (those words aren't at all powerful enough) to feel that I'm not me any more too. It is hard to describe but I know what you mean. 
