My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Morning , just a quick one too , to send massive hugs to Gayle , as everyone say hang on in there hun , we're all with you and not long before i give you a real one xxxx

 Dad is okish , just waiting now to hear when he'll have his next op done . Fiona i hope your ok for the next couple of weeks , i know how stressfull these dads can be , but at least i usually have my 2 sisters to help aswell , so i hope the next 2 weeks go as smoothly as possible for you ..

Hugs to all and once again thank you for all your offers of raffle prizes . your amazing xxxxxxxxxxxx

Just a short post as I don't really know what to say (I know - its a first that I am lost for words lol).  Thank you all for the kind words - it really does mean the world to me.  I don't know what I would do without you all.  I have one friend who has remembered and been texting me and thats it so without you all it would be very hard.  Rosemary, you didn't upset me or not in a bad way - your words are very true.  I have had a lovely couple of days with a friend who was away with work near to where I was in Aberdeen.  I was supposed to be home yesterday from work but couldn't face it (it was good to escape from life for a bit) so stayed away another night with my friend.  But back today and back to reality and very tired so hopefully I will sleep tonight and my head will be back working tomorrow.  Tiredness is not good for the emotions as we all know.

Hope you are all doing okay and hope your back is a bit better today Ailsa.

Gayle xxx

Evening everyone, been a lovely day here!!

Gayle glad you ve had a good time with your friend, yes tiredness does make us feel worse so hope you get some sleep tonight.

Fiona hope your Dad is ok while your sister is away and Lynne hope your Dad hears about his op soon x

I m off to a friends tonight for a coffee, its a girl I used to work with and we dont see each other often but she s a good friend and you dont need to see them all the time to know they re there do you xx We always have a laugh.

Nat has now finished her exams, hurray!!!!! She seems quite happy with herself and feels she s done ok. Liam is happy too as he is getting plenty of hours in his new job so looking forward to pay day! He has 2 more A levels to take next week and week after then he s done! So all peaceful on the homefront at the moment....phew!!! lol x

My back feels better today after my furniture removing at the weekend but I havent been to the gym for a couple of weeks and have eaten absolute rubbish lately so back to exercise and healthy eating next week!! Ailsa hope your back is ok xx

Hope everyone has enjoyed some of the sunshine today, have a good evening everyone

Helen xxx

Just found this link for Paul McKenna (hypnotherapist) to help everyone sleep.  It is a series of articles in the Daily Mail and he gives you exact instructions to follow.  Worth a try and I know he has a lot of success with lots of people and problems.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1112245/Are-plagued-insomnia-Crave-rejuvenating-nights-rest-Paul-McKenna-shares-unique-secret-formula-perfect-nights-sleep.html

Perhaps all of us could try it when we can't sleep and do a Penguin Clinical Sleep Trial.  Good luck all of you and sweet dreams xxxxxxx

Evening all . Hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs to Gayle , (told you i was going to bombard you with hugs this week )XXXXXXXXXXX

Have a good night Helen , yes its always nice to see old friends and well done to the kids on there exams , like you say phew xxxxx

 Rosemary i'm going to look at your link , and here's to a good nights sleep lol .xxxxx Once again thank you for the vouchers Sue that came today and thank you to everybody else who have pleged stuff for the day , you really have no idea how much i appriciate it all .. xxxx  

 I'm having a good week at work , with my bestest mate again and the 2 big bosses are coming to see us tommorow so i may have to ask them to donate a ambulance or something lol . Ailsa i hope your back is a little better now (and Helens ) Hope everybody is doing ok xx

Take care

 Lynne xxxx

Hi  everyone.

Meeting up with Brenda and going to see Sex in the city2 but as I am not sleeping either I don't know if I will be able to stay awake long enough to watch it all. Think I might take yor advice Rosemary and try Paul McKenna see if that helps any. You would think with all the running around I am doing I would sleep like a log.

Tomorrow going ti see the CN tower and yet more shopping .

Love to everyone especially those of you who are having a tough time at the moment. I made the mistake of reading some of my old blogs today. I am nnot really ready for that yet I don't think

Love Teri

Evening Everyone, Hope you get a good sleep tonight Gayle you must be tired with all your travelling sending you hugs. It has been a great day here again so hope nice tomorrow so me and Charlie can get out a walk. I am sure Liam and Nat will have done well in there exams Helen hope you enjoyed your night with your friend, my friend away on hols just now so no visitors tonight but i have got on with a few jobs as will not have much time for the next two weeks. I am managing to sleep better just now but i sometimes wonder if it's because Darren is in the house with me. Well i am away to put kettle on and have a cup of tea before bed. Hope i find time to post again soon. Fiona xxxxxxxxxxxxx 

Love and support to all who need it. Gayle, thinking of you.  Ailsa, Helen I hope your backs are feeling a little better.

I do hope that everyone starts to sleep a little better soon.

Lynne, Fiona good wishes to your dads. Hopefully they will experience better times soon.

Have the best night you can and an even better tomorrow.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Evening everyone.  Teri have a great time at the CN Tower tomorrow and don't let the side down with the shopping!!!  Do plenty for all of us.  I know what you mean about reading older posts - it can be very emotional.

Helen I am glad your back is getting better.  I think mine is as well but it has gone into some sort of spasm so just have to move carefully and keep taking the drugs lol!

I'm glad you had a good time with your friend Gayle.  The distraction can only do you some good.  I think I mixed up my post yesterday as I am now sure it was Judi who was talking about the things children say - at least I remembered Rosemary & Judi had posted, that is a step in the right direction for my shocking memory!

Fiona, Lynne, lots of love to both of your Dads.   I am really looking forward to seeing you both in July.

Rosemary I will have a look at the Paul McKenna link as well.  I generally sleep okay but then have a really bad night out of the blue - slightly different angle for the Penguin Sleep Trial.

I hope everyone has had a chance to enjoy the sunshine today.  I got some gardening done and sat for a while on the new bench with my neighbour.  I fixed the plaque on properly today so we drank a small toast to Chris.  I should really get off to bed.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xx

Fiona, Patricia, I missed you both as I posted.  I hope you are both okay this evening.  Take care.  Ailsa xx