My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Hi Lynne and all

Cleaning is very good exercise, rather be out of the house though! I find it helps if I keep busy, it is when I sit alone I start brooding, not good.

Am at work but as I am in isolation (yet again) with child who is out of class, thought I would amuse myself on here!

It is so boring, just sitting in an empty room with child, not allowed to engage in conversation, just supervise. Some days I can do this for hours at a time, bring on the redundancy!

Am out tomorrow though on a field trip, so at least I will be moving about a bit.

Sorry to hear that your dad is unwell again, it is so hard to watch someone suffer.

For all of you still not sleeping, I really empathise with you. I didn't sleep for more than 40 minutes at a time after Colin died, this went on for about 4 months. Glad to say I manage a full nights sleep most nights now.

Well I will do a bit of cyberslacking now until I go on break duty at 11!

Bye for now  xx

Happy Birthday Lesley! Hope your days turns out to be more interesting thanit sounds at the moment... xx

Lynne, the pix are lovely, you really have done at great job! xx hope you are making the most of your week off?

Gayle, hope you are soon on the mend hun... hope today is a little easier for you. xx

Patricia, hopefully one day in the not too distant future we will all find the answer to our sleep problems! And them just maybe our brains will cease to behave like a pile of mush too... xx

I am at work at the moment, but I am so stressed I needed a quick break. I came back from my holiday to total chaos! We organise the city's biggest annual street festival, which is taking place on June 19th, and our main musical act has had to pull out through injury. On top of that, it turns out that our sound engineer is no longer available, I can't get hold of the chap who is leading our Samba parade through the city centre and the cycle display team have now decided they want to be in a different location.... Arraagghh!!!

Oh well, at lease it is keeping me occupied! Back later...

Manda xx

Yipppeeeee Just had my estimate for the kitchen , i'm very very happy . cant wait for him to get started now but might take a couple of weeks xxxxxx

Happy Birthday Lesley! xxxxxx

Lynne, Gordons own little garden looks lovely, much more select don't you think?  You've done really well there, now look after yourself girl!  That goes for all of you too, Gayle be careful on that cross trainer, evil things one tried to get me once!  Patricia I wish I could help with the sleeping, if I come across anything at all I will send you the suggestions, I know you have tried a few but if you still can't sleep you may as well work through them all xxxx

Had a busy evening yesterday, just as we had finished dinner and I thought I might get on here. Wayne phoned Sam, she was with me and he was at their house, to say little kitten Jack (not 2 months old yet) had fallen from his shoulder and hit his head on the glass topped coffee table, flipped over and seemed to have hurt his leg too, then had a sort of fit, shaking all over and thrashing around spraying blood from his nos everywhere.  Oh my goodness, we leapt in the car, loaded them both up (Wayne in his blood covered t-shirt) and got straight to the vet  - emergency on call vet, £82.00 before they did anything! - and luckily he doesn't seem to have done any real damage, just a lot of bruising and he was very shaken up. He stayed in over night and we picked him up this morning looking much brighter.  Bless his little white paws, that's one of his nine lives then!

Ok I am off to tax the car, SORN two others and then.... then.... I am going to clean the kitchen and sort the piles of junk mail from the stuff I need to keep and then....well lets not go too mad, see if I get the first bit done shall we.  Hope you are all having a good day xxxxxxx

Happy Birthday Lesley xxx

I hope i find eveyone well.

Ive been at home all day rearanging my house,as ive bough a 50 inch tv to watch the world cup on.Im thinking of selling the place to be honest,as i dont really like spending much time in the house.

Anyway im sorted for now as i have my tv sky hd and a fridge full of beers.

Thanks Dave xxx 

50 inch tV and a fridge full of beer - heaven on earth!!

(for some, anyway!)

Enjoy, Dave

Sue xx

Cheers Dave!  Sounds like you're all set up for the immediate future, do the boys like watching the footie with you?  I know what you mean about selling the house, a lot of people find it hard to stay where the memories are, a new place might help you to settle your life a bit. 

Darn it, all excited about Dave's tv set and now I can't remember what I was going to say!  xxxxxx

Oh Dave football is sooooo boring! You should come shopping instead!!!

Know what you mean about being home, that is the bit I am having the most difficulty with. Seem to rush in and out again, the only real time spent at home is in bed. Really can't stand sitting in front room, shame because is really nice but feel so lonely in there. I seem to be spending less and less time at home. Looks like my hand might be forced anyway soon as Dave has accepted a teaching job near Blackpool and they will probably relocate within a year if all goes to plan, I will have to think of selling then as I have no wish to stay in this area without my family.

So many changes it is scary but at least I have a while to decide what to do, I have no idea where my life is going at the moment, home, work, relationships but hopefully  can have fun finding out  ;-)

Enjoy the football Dave!  xx

Hope your birthday has been a relatively good one Lesley x x x

Dave with a 50 inch tv you will feel as though you are at the games. Don't get too drunk lol

Rosemary, the poor little kitten. I do hope he doesn't suffer any side effects.

Lynne, good news about your kitchen. Let's hope it is done without too much upheaval.

Love and angel hugs to everyone x x x Patricia x x x

Helen

love from Sue and Napoleon xx