My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Evening all , so sorry you had a rough night Patricia , there;s no wonder really with you being so worried about little Charlie , i'm sending all positive thought to her and her family and i'm sending you some sleepy dust and if it works let me know xx

Good luck with the meeting Tonight Bren and Teri , so very pleased for you both .xx Well after my slow start i got loads done today , i'd bought some new fencing for Gordons grave so i spent a couple of hours up there , removing the old stuff and everything else that had been put on it in  the last 11 months , it was going a bit messy and i couldn't keep the weeds from growing even through the slate , so i cleared everything off , put weedkiller down and just put a some things back , i've put a couple of photos on POA . I then came home and spent a couple of hours in the garden so i feel quite proud of myself . Still got lots planned through the week so hopefully i get it all done .

. Hope everybody else is having a good day ..

 Take care all

   Lynne xxx

Lesley -

Wishing you a

      for tomorrow

sue and napoleon xx

or even the whole message -

Well done Lynne, you have been busy haven't you? Good for you. I hope you are pleased with your efforts.

Happy Birthday Lesley hope you have a good one.

Bren and Teri I do hope you are having a good meeting.

Mmmm... reading back I see there is a lot of 'hope' in my post. lol

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Thanks ladies!

Just off to have a look at your pics Lynne.

Hugs to all xx

Hi everyone.  Lynne you have done a lovely job of Gordon's grave.  The new fencing looks just the job.

Lesley - happy birthday for tomorrow.  Have you got anything planned?

Patricia I am sorry you are still not sleeping.  I have no suggestions I'm afraid but I hope you find the solution soon.  Maybe you are right - maybe you just don't need much more sleep.

Bren, Teri - I hope you are having a thoroughly good catch up as all good penguins should!  It sounds like your retreat was good because you met someone who doesn't live far from you.  I am glad you got good from it and a chance to do something different and meet new people.

I am trying to do some other things instead of the garage this week so I have been to pilates and tomorrow I am going shopping to the White Rose Centre after work with a friend.  I've only ever been there once before so I am looking forward to that.  I hope veryone else is okay - Gayle I hope your cold is getting better.  Take care eveyone.  Ailsa xx

Thanks Ailsa

No nothing planned, only work  :-(   Will probably see Rachel after work but that's it. Am going out on Friday with girlfriends though, so will enjoy that.

Loved dance aerobics last night, absolutly glowing when I got out. I dragged Rachel along with me, I don't think she is speaking to me now!!!! I can't wait to do it again. Pilates on Thursday, hope I enjoy it as much. The exercise certainly helps me to sleep, full 7 hours last night.

Have a good day all, xxxxx

Morning everyone,

Happy Birthday Lesley and glad you are enjoying the exercise.  I bought a crosstrainer a few weeks ago (as I cant get out at night to go to a gym because of the kids) and I love it too now and use it most days.  Ailsa, glad you are doing a couple of things for yourself this week - I hope you enjoy the shopping today.  Lynne, the pictures were lovely and looking forward to seeing it in person soon.  Hope you have a busy day today and get lots done - its very satisfying when you do.  Patricia - sorry your not sleeping - me neither lol so no helpful hints I'm afraid but I can give you lots of sympathy and hugs.  Its horrible feeling like a zombie during the day when you've had a bad night.  Sorry I now forget what everyone else has said so I will just say a mass hello to everyone and send you bug higs.

I am still feeling rubbish :-(  I stayed at home all day yesterday and my parents had the boys so I got rest but by the end of the day I did feel a bit better but of course we all know its a bad move to be stuck in the house so started getting a bit emotional and ended up looking at old photos.  I'm in the house again today as still don't feel 100% and don't fancy the 3hr round trip to my work feeling like this so I will leave it to tomorrow.  So by the end of the day I will definitely be going mad and be desperate to get out this house.  Lets hope I can keep the emotions away today though - probably because I'm feeling sorry for myself with this cold doesn't help.  Anyway I best get off and get some work done.  At least I won't fall behind as I can work whereever there is an internet connection!

Have a good day

Gayle xxx

Sending you big hugs Gayle  xxxxxx

Hope your feeling better soon Gayle , I cant wait for you to come and say Hello to Gordon with me , the cemetery is lovely far better than the photos suggest ..

 Happy birthday Lesley , wow your really going for it with your exersize , you almost got me reaching for the wii Fit , which is under the sofa where it has beenfor the last year , one day i'll get my motivation , or maybe not .. After yesterdays digging i can hardley move this morning , my back is  so stiff , oh well at least i dont have work .. Pin killers here i come .. Enjoy your shopping Ailsa , shame about the rain but i think the white rose is indoors , is it ? .. Patricia i hope you slept a little better hun .. Thank you for all your comments on the photos , it keeps me out of trouble lol doing things at the cemetery .. Its a cleaning day at dads today , althought we do it all the time we are giving his bungalow a good spring clean today . He had to go to the docs last night as he has a massive infection in his mouth again , poor thing , he's so down , dont really know how to help him ..

 Take care all back later

 Lynne xxx