My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

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My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa

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    Patricia, apart from July when I will be away, you are very welcome here

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    Oh my word Bren I am joking. I wouldn't dream of imposing mysself on anyone.

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    I think it would be a pleasure to have you, you would never be an imposition

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    Sorry not much good tonight (again) it's Steve's birthday tomorrow, Sam is away at her house, Daniel working and it's all a little too much.  I'm going to sit on the ledge with a large Baileys, actually go out there and think of you all crowded round beside me and raise a glass to him in his garden, along with all of your lovely men and the lovely ladies that have been lost too.  Love you all, xxxxxxx

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    hang on tightly, rosemary - we're all beside you on the ledge

    xxx

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    Big hugs Rosemary

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    Hang on we are all with you. Hugs xxx

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    We're all there with you Rosemary.  I will raise a bailey's to Steve as well tonight.  Sending you lots of ((((((hugs)))))).  Ailsa xxx

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    Alfie it is good to hear from you.  Enjoy your holiday and I hope it gives you a rest.  Keep your laptop handy and keep in touch.  We are all here if you need an ear at any time.  I find being busy gets me through just as Gayle says.  I'm probably a little too busy but I feel sure I will slow down when the time is right.  Just make sure you look after yourself.

    How are you this evening Lynne?  You sound very busy with the charity night.  I'm really looking forward to it and it is good you have something good to keep you busy.  Are you making progress with the house?  It is very difficult concentrating on everything - I keep forgetting things.

    Looks like I might ned to do a few short posts as I still have a house full & I am being called.  Will be back soon.  Take care.  Ailsa xxx

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    Hi all

    Rosemary, I have just picked up 'blankie' and my glass to come out and join you and give you a hug darling (((( )))).  We will raise a glass to all of our lovely chaps and chapesses and sit in quiet contemplation.  xxxx

    Judi xx