My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Hi All, Thanks for the words of comfort last week I am not as alone as I felt at the time. I think it was because I hit the 3 month mark. Most of you who read POA will know by now that I rashly booked a 3 week holiday to Canada leaving on Thursday and would you believe I will be 5 mins away from Bren how uncanny is that . We are both so excited to be meeting our first penguins. This will be my first holiday ever alone so it will be strange

I won't be taking my laptio but hope to use my step sisters computer so will keep in touch.

Love and hugs to all who need them.

Love Teri

Wow Teri. How uncanny is that. I hope you have a good time on your trip. Drink plenty on the flight and move often. I hope you and Bren have a good visit with each other. I am so excited for you both.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Teri that is fab!!!! A get together in Canada! Think that beats ours lol xxx Dont forget the photos xx

I ve just been to the gym, I think I got winked at across the exercise bikes lol!! Either that or he had a bad twitch hee hee. More likely to be the 2nd one ha ha xxx

Going to a friends for drinkies later but will have to be good as away with my friend tomorrow and Tuesday so dont want a hangover to spoil it!! I will need all my will power though as the girls I am drinking with this afternoon are hardened drinkers and I usually end up in a mess!!

I have just booked a luxury manicure with hand mask, an eyebrow shape and then going to the hairdressers on Thursday. I got the voucher for the pampering last year on my birthday off the kids and never got round to using it so going to have a pamper day to myself xx Dont usually do things like that so had to push myself but sure it will be good x

Whats everyone else doing today? Hope you have a good Sunday

Helen xxx

Ha ha love it Sue xxxxx

Hi everyone.  I hope you are all okay this bank holiday.  I have just spent an age reading all the posts and making notes.  I want to take it all in before I answer but just wanted to say hello for now.  Becky & Declan are still here with me and we are going to go out very soon to look at possible places for them to live when they move.  Becky's also been helping me with some of the thngs I need to organise for the next bit of garage work.  I hope you are all having a decent weekend.  I will be back on this evening after we have had a drive round and then met the other 2 & their partners for tea.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Hello everyone,

That looks like a cartoon Peter Andre Sue!  Helen, love that you got a wink - and so you should!  I got a wolf whistle last week and it made my day lol.  Even though the guy was a complete ned - can't remember the last time I got one haha.

Teri that is great you are going on holiday and I am sure it will just be the tonic for you and your meeting a penguin!  What do you mean Helen that that beats Newcastle ;-)  Judi, can't believe the mixup - that sounds like something I would do and glad you had a nice night last night.  Rosemary, I used to get a similar thing to your elbow (I had 3 horses) - I used to always get a pulled muscle in one arm just at the start of the mucking out season obviously because I was out of practise so can sympathise with you.  Keep looking at horses wistfully as I had to sell my last one about 6 months before Wully died but really miss them.  Just don't possibly have the time just now though.

Alfie, I hope you get on okay on holiday and keep in touch with us.  The only key piece of advise to survive is to keep busy.  That is the only thing that keeps me going.  I still hate Sundays and had to go to the diy shop this morning which was torture and I am 3 weeks away from the 1 year anniversary.  I just go at a million miles an hour constantly and don't give myself time to think.  The advise about crying is good though.  I remember an analogy before about this where its a bit like having to be sick - you have to do it to feel better (sorry not a pleasant analogy) and crying is the same - eventually after a good cry you do feel slightly better.

Well the kids are due back soon from their 3 days at the caravan and have missed them (no doubt will be scrapping that thought in a few hours :-)) and back to the mayhem.  I'm working up in Aberdeen this week then lots of socialising planned for later in the week.  Plus its our annual fun day next week at the playgroup on Saturday - my dad and I are running the cafe dressed as pirates!  Must try and get a photo of that one lol. 

Well I'm off to do some work before the kids are back.

Take care everyone.

Gayle xxxx  

Gayle I have this vision of you on a beautiful black horse riding up the motorway. Well it made me smile anyway lol x x x

Yes I am so excited to meet my first Penguin soon.  Looking forward to Teri coming and hope this is just the beginning.  There is always a welcome for Penguins at my house!

Don't tempt me Bren lol x x x