My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Hi Gayle-hope you dont mind me jumping your thread? Where are you all going to see John Edwards? x

Morning all , well this thread is a year old and i think we should have a drink to Chris today and i'm sending lots of hugs to Ailsa .. Helen i also know its going to be a tough week for you so hoping that the penguins pull you through the other side .. Patricia please share about the medium , maybe on the penguin thread now (fantastic idea Gayle ) .. Yin and Yang , Gayle , Amanda and i are seeing JE on may 18th in manchester and Judi , Ailsa Fiona and Teri are seeing him in Edinburough in Sept (i think i've got that right ) Well Maddies party was lovely and then went to sissters pub but i didn't stay late i just wasn't up for it . I'd been in tears all morning , a little bit anxious about SD coming down but it was lovely , we do get on so well and thats why its so hard to take when things go wrong . It was her first visit since the headstone has gone up as she has been recovering from her op on her back . I kniw she would be so upset and i think i was feeling it for her .. I'm feeling ok today and i'm going to a music festival where my friends daughter is head lining so we have VIP passes to the beer tent (got to be done ) so i'm looking forward to that even though it is freezing brr . Oh well plenty of vlothes on i think .. Whats everbody else  up to today xxx

Take care

 Lynne xxx

Thanks Lynne-I am seeing him in Cardiff  on 17th May. Hope you all have a good time. x

Just as well its me that books the hotels Lynne!  Its the 20th May we see John Edwards lol.

I have just come back from the beach.  I hadn´t taken the kids before to where I had scattered some ashes so I explained it to them this morning that I had left daddys magic dust there so that it would go up in the sky so he could be an angel in heaven.  How else do you explain it lol.  Anyway, they seem to get that so we went down as it is 5 years since Wully was diagnosed.  It was a bank holiday Monday and he had been called in following an endoscope and even though we should have clicked that it was holiday and must have been serious we didn´t.  Wully went alone and they told him it was very serious (looking at months) and he then phoned me crying.  I actually thought he was pulling my leg at first.  Looking back now it was just the start of the nightmare.  Anyway, the boys were good apart from the constant questions about what colour the dust was, was it in a box, etc, etc and they decided to collect shells to leave for Daddy which they placed on a stone in a row for him and then told him messages like they loved him and he was the best daddy.  I feel better for doing it and I hope that it is somewhere they will visit in later years as adults.  Anyway, now thats done I can move on with my day and I have an ironing calling me.  Hope everyone´s day is okay.

Gayle xx

Clicked send too early.  Ailsa, I too will raise a glass to Chris today and I hope you get through the day okay with your family.  You are in my thoughts xxx

Ooops Gayle bare in mind i messed up a day return from york lol but i'm confident i've got the manchester tickets booked correctly (i'll just go and check them ... The beach sounds lovely Gayle and i hope one day to see to , i'm sure your boys will always find it a special place , well done on doing that today xxxxx

Gayle, well done on taking your boys to the beach, it can't have been easy for you. It sounded beautiful, I can picture them lining up their shells.

I too will have a drink for Ailsa and her hubbie, just the one though as I am babysitting.

Will be thinking of you too Helen, this coming week.

Have been very busty today, cleaning. Have also prepared a favourite, Colin used to make for me, Moroccan lamb kebabs, mint taboullah & deep fried aubergine. Sounds good but will it taste good? I would like to bbq the lamb but the weather doesn't look promising and bbq for one sounds sad  :(   It should taste nice griiled?

Hope you all have a nice bank holiday. xx

dear gayle

what a heart warming post from you about your visit to the beach with the boys. wonderfully typical remarks from both of them about the colour of the ashes etc !  I love the way they put stones for him - that is truly lovely.

Sue xx

Thanks ladies.  Just had to post though as Lesley you made a good typo!!!  You are very busty today are you lol?  Sorry made me giggle x

Lol, yes that as well!!!!!!!!