My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Gayle, hope your teacher meeting is good, Manda you sound so good, also best wishes for H to be well and congrats to her also!  Teri, Helen, Ailsa and anyone esle who needs comfort, huge hugs for you.  Judy hope you settle about your house soon, such a lot of work, I can't imagine trying to move out of here right now, I am such a packrat.  Too much junk to sort.  Rosemary, I am sending Canadian  positive thoughts for Sam, hope your cold is better.

I survived the 6 months, although today is 7 months since Dan left the house and never came home again.  I am just back at work from my group, they are a good bunch and I think we may become friends afterwards, it is good to talk to them. 

My neighbours took me out for dinner last night and I really enjoyed the evening.  After such a low on Tuesday, it was a nice night yesterday.  My other neighbour came over last night too so the dogs could meet each other, she has an 11 year old poodle and Max is part chocolate lab and part who knows what and 85 pounds.  They got along just great so we will have fun next week with Ginger.

My BIL is coming Sat and will stay over until Monday.  What do I cook for him???? I haven't cooked for anyone for 7 months now and wil have to buy things like bread.  Actually it will be nice to have someone in the house at least for a couple of days.  Their cousin may come to visit on Sunday and if not, he is in my area on business next week and hopes to stop in to visit. 

My nieces are in cheerleading and usually have a competition in Toronto in May, I just haven't heard yet when it will be but we used to go and see them perform.  So May is turning  into a busy time for me.  It is good to be busy, I just need to find the balance so I don't get too exhausted.

Patricia, I think it was you who said about buying books and not reading them.  I have been better lately but a few months ago was buying all kinds of books, have about 6 on the go and can't sit down to read or finish them.  Nice to know it isn't just me.  I also can't seem to sit and watch television, just a couple of special shows but most nights don't even turn it on. 

lots of hugs for all of you

Bren

Evening all , Ailsa we all sending our love and support for tommorow , i know you said you we're dreading fri rather than sat , so we all be thinking about you tommorow and Helen i know you'll probably be building up by now , i hope you get thropugh it ok .. Gayle i hope your parent teacher meeting went ok , i'm sure Ewen will do you proud , dont beat yourself up about being late , you'll not be the first and you'll not be the last hun ...Bren i was talking to someone today who lost her husband 3 years ago and she said that all she can remember about the first year is all the "dates" and i think that we are exactly the same , i have so many memories about this weekend last year how can things be so different ?Hope you enjoy the company of your BIL .. Judi good luck with the house hunting hun i hope you manage to get some where that is just right for you , hope you actualy manage to meet up with Gayle this time . Hugs and more hugs to you all ..

Take care .

. Lynne xxxxx

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Ailsa xxx

Ailsa sending you big hugs for tomorrow and the weekend xxxx

I suppose I am lucky that Paul`s last weekend was actually a busy one, dont know where his strength came from but we did quite a lot this time last year, he literally went quickly downhill only the evening he died. Dont get me wrong he had been ill and weak for months but still made himself do things xx Looking back I wonder how xx Was only thinking today though how at times it still doesnt feel real but thats crazy isnt it?

The fundraising evening is all organised, just need something to wear lol!!

Nat is much better, gone out on a date tonight x

I now cant remember what you all wrote so will send bug higs to everyone and hope we all get through the bank holiday weekend

Lots of love

Helen xxx

Can't think of any words which will make you all feel better, so am sending hugs and kind thoughts instead. Just to let you all know that even when I am not on-line, I am still thinking of you all.  xx

So Ailsa, Helen and Teri and anyone else who is in need right now, big hugs and kisses to you. x   Lesley   x

For Ailsa xxxx

Evening All, Ailsa and Helen i am sending you BIG hugs, Gayle i am sure you will be proud of your boys after seeing the teacher tonight. Teri sorry to hear all the hassle you are having just now i hope you get on ok at doctors tomorrow. Amanda well done to H i am sure you are very proud of her and i am sure her dad is to. Judi i hope your house hunting goes well. Sue your pics are just great don't know where you find them. Rosemary i hope your daughter gets on ok  hopefully once she has the test she will stop worrying. Bren enjoy your visitors it makes a differance when you have someone to cook for. I have been off today and spent the day with Kim and Charlie it was good he is growing so fast. Darren home from work full of the cold and he is feeling miserable so he is off to bed, hope he makes work tomorrow with him just started. I also hate May now as that was when Derek was diagnosed 6th and it was one of the worst days of my life but i am sure you all feel the same. Hard to think it is 2 yrs ago. I am sending hugs to everybody else i have not mentioned my brain not working think i need my bed. Fiona xxxxxxxxxx  

Evening everyone,

Alisa and Helen I can only echo everyone else in that my thoughts are with you both constantly at the moment.  It was 02-05-05 that Wully was first diagnosed and they said then he wouldn't reach the 5 year mark.  I remember at the time thinking where would I be in 5 years and how different my life is now.   What a sad time of year for us all.  Parents night was okay - he got a glowing report apart from being too bossy and always wanting to take charge and organise - can't think where he gets that from at all!  Had a bit of a tearful moment talking about his dad but managed to keep it together.  We talked about fathers day and she was very good - I am so glad he has her as his teacher as she is a very good one but I had heard that before.

Fiona - meant to say I saw the pics of Charlie where you told me and they are gorgeous - what a little man he is.

Bren - I would give you advise on what to cook but as the others know it would not be good lol.  I did actually cook a meal this week for the first time in months - I was very impressed!  I am sure it will be good to see BIL and will keep you busy for the weekend.

Bug higs to everyone else and yes Judi and I are meeting next week yay!!!  Better not say that loud or I will jinx it again.

Take care penguins

Gayle xxx

Just wanted to send bug hugs to everyone who needs them at the moment... Ailsa, will be thinking of you lots over the nexr few days. Much love, Manda xx

Ailsa, I just want to offer support and comfort to you over the next few days. Always here for you and thinking of you.

For everyone who has difficult dates coming up I wish you the strength to get you through.

I shall be lighting my special candles over the next week in honour of you and your loved ones.

Next week is difficult for a few of us due to it being the anniversary of diagnosis (another difficult time to remember and one we wish to forget).

I have not really named anyone this post apart from Ailsa (this being her thread and the reason we all met) but I am thinking of you all.

Love and angel hugs to you all today and over the coming week x x x Patricia x x x