My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Patricia, the book is called My Whispering Angels by Francesca Brown, it is one I picked up in the supermarket, looking for something quick to read.

Manda and Lynne, glad you had a nice time in York, it is lovely there. Don't worry about me, I have had a reasonable week for the most part but have been busy.

Might try some more meditation tonight, has anyone ever tried it? It is much harder than I ever imagined. Supposed to empty my mind but the only time my mind feels empty is when I am asleep and I don't remember my dream! The difference I can see so far is I have had some very bizarre dreams after my attempts at meditation! Shouldn't moan though at least I do sleep now.

Where has the weekend gone, can't believe it is Monday again already.

Sue have you heard anything more about the redundancies yet?

Have a good evening all.  xxxx

Hi, Lesley

Thanks for asking; we won't hear anything until the end of may, but the more I consider the criteria, the more sure i am that it will be me.

What  age do you work with? The nursery class that i teach at the moment is being closed, so that doesn't help either! It's going to be run by private finance.  i have 26 children aged 3 - 4, and i love them to bits; they are a super class.

Ah, well, Monday tomorrow - planting sunflowers and nasturiums this week , and making jelly.

have a good week,

Sue xx

Gayle, sorry to hear your emotions are in such turmoil. strange how we react to any given situation isn't it. Be kind to yoursrlf hun and also try to get a little rest.

Lynne, I was only joking with you about the meeting (and being nosey). I am just glad that you enjpoyed it.

Ailsa, such a busy weekend you must be absolutely delighted to be kept so busy.lol. Maybe you will appreciate a little 'me' time now. x x x

Sue, sorry to hear that there are going to be redundancies and hope you are not one of the unfortunate ones.x x

Bren, I hope you feel better for getting your house sorted. It is nice when everything is neat and tidy isn't it. As for my aches and bruises, they are coming alond nicely. Since I told about them though I have banged my arm on the car door and managed to get a splinter in my hand. Perhaps I should change my name to Calamity Jane or just plain Clumsy.

Thanks for the book title Lesley. Hope the meditation goes well for you.

Isd everyone else ok??? I hope so.

I have been to a 60th birthday party this evening which I had decided I didn't really want to go to but in fact enjoyed very much. I wore my new dress and felt very nice in it too.

Well good night and God bless. Sleep perchance to dream.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Love and ((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))) to all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi everyone.  Hope you are all okay.  I don't know whether I am on this earth or Fullers!!  I have worked so hard for the past 4 days and there still seems to be more to do.  I can't wait to go home tomorrow.  I have cleaned all the carpets in the old house and done both the back & front gardens.  That is on top of double figures of trips with my van between the 2 houses.  I am absolutely done in.

I am trying to catch up on your posts a few at a time as I have no pen & paper at Becky's.  Patricia I hope you have a few less bruises by now.  I am full of splinters for some reason.  Helen sorry it has to be so emotional bumping into the lads who know Paul but i think it might be really nice a s well.  Who would have guessed we would still have been going after 5000 posts.  Well done everyone and thanks for always being there.  I will read a couple more posts and be back soon xxx

Evening All,   Hope everyone is ok tonight, i have been out a walk tonight but a bit cold, sorry i have not posted all weekend but my sister had a virus so i was looking after my dad since Fri a full time job as he can't do much as he has  problems getting about  and of course my mum had him spoiled and she done everything for him and how we are just doing the same.  Lynne how's your dad doing? Darren's job going fine it's good to see him working again, he is still with me just now and not that i see a lot of him it's nice to have someone to make dinner for again only worry is when he decides to move on again i have to get use to being on my own again. Gayle hope you are catching up on your sleep after your journey. Well i am off to make a coffee and watch tv for a bit before bedtime. Luv and Hugs to you all. Fiona xxxxxxxxxxx  

Hi.  Fiona I hope your sister is feeling better.  It is nice that your dad has people to look after him so well.  Think I might be on my way to bed as well soon.  This move is wearing me out and it is getting hard for me to concentrate.

Lesley it is nice to hear from you.  The meditation sounds very interesting.  I could do with something similar if it helps me to slow down.  I still have not dreamed of Chris - it would be lovely if I did.  Your holiday sounds like it will be nice and relaxing.  I haven't got any holidays booked for this year.  I was maybe going to go with Becky & Declan but as she wants to move closer to home now I think the holiday might have to wait.  Ailsa xx

Hi everyone

Gayle I think that you have to be realistic hun, I genuinely believe it will take you a few weeks to feel full of beans again after such a full on week of travelling etc.  So just LOOK AFTER YOURSELF .... yes I was shouting!

Fiona, you just enjoy having Darren round hun and don't worry about him momving on somewhere else until it happens.  Hope your dad is feeling a bit better.  Lynne, is it tomorrow your dad goes to see how he is getting on?

Ailsa, I was laughing at myself, cos I got a bit confused about Bex and the houses and then I realised that I had missed a whole house out I think!!!  She is going into a new one for a while and THEN coming to nearer you ...... isn't she??

Sue I so, so, so hope that you the 'criteria' don't match and when asked if Sue should stay where she is the Man from del Monte .... He say YES.   Fingers crossed hun. 

I phoned my old boss and asked if I bought him a pint would he do me a favour and he daftly said yes before even asking what the favour was!!  So he is going to come round in the next couple of nights and value the flat for me.  I went to look at a lovely little two bed house with french doors out onto a garden ........ the sun was shining and I just though " I think I could like this".  But property here is flying off the shelf so it will be long gone before I cian do anything about it.  But it was good to see what sort of thing I could get ........ but oh would I have to get rid of quite a bit of furniture. 

Patricia, it is often the case that the things you wont' enjoy turn out to be better than you imagined.  And of course you looked lovely in your dress, why wouldn't you????

Bren, I think if I get this place sold you could come over here and sort out all my garage 'stuff' and I could go over there and do yours for you ... what do you think?  Less memories to deal with that way.  Gayle, how hard did you find packing up and moving houses?  We have been here since 1994, so a few years worth of life to sort out when the time comes.  But I believe that all my memories will come with me where ever I end up.   Rosemary's wall to wall sunshine is still sounding tempting!

Loads of love and hugs to all - Judi xxx

Morning all .. Fiona and Judi thnaks for asking about dad , Fiona you always ask about him even though you have your own dad to worry about thank you . He is just getting on shall we say , it was last week that he went back Judes (you we're that busy playing twister you didn't realise lol) They gave him some more anti biotics and he goes back in a couple of weeks . I cant say things have improved much , he's still wearing the mask all the time and when he tries to ear anything other than soft runny things it just comes straight out ,not sure if things will improve any and he is really down i just hope he starts to get a bit better soon . Judei good luck with the valuation , i hope you get a better result than i did but it make my mind up really that i was staying put , hopefully i'll hear something from the bank soon and i can put my plans into action .

 Ailsa you made my head spin lol , i though i liked being busy but i would have collapsed i'm sure . Did you get to meet our Rosemary at all ? And the idea of the 2 groups meeting is a great one . There is a big meet in Birmingham but i'm not sure of the date .early sept i think , Amanda might be able to fill us in with that one as i know she is on holiday at the time . I will keep adding the friends to your lists but there is quite a few that i dont even know on the MW site who arn't on face book so i dont know how many will be going . A lady called Lynne (not me lol )is organising that one ..

Dotte sending a big squishy hug to you and when i have the builders in you can send me one back , i cant say i'm looking forward to all that , oh wellneeds to be done to get on .I was talking to my personal PA on sunday (Gayle ) and she is going to look at the hotels for the charity day (thanks Gayle) Hope you managed to catch up on the sleep ..

 Well  onece again one flippant comment has changed things again for me (in a good way) i happened to say to sisters on sat night that i couldn't see me getting away to the sun this year as once i start doing the work i will want to get it done and befroe you know it me and Karen are going to Benidorm a week on monday . Only for 5 days again which is enough just for a quick break . Big sis cant leave the pub and doesn't really want to leave dad on his own so its just 2 of us this time . No hand bags coming with us tho .. So may is pretty busy thank goodness just need to cover June now and then before i know it the first anniversary will be passed .

Hope everybody else is ok and Sue big hug to you , i'm sure your a little worried about the job , but everybody thinks it will be them and hopefully for once your wrong hun xx 

Take care all Lynne xxxx

Morning everyone.  I am just taking a moment for a quick post before I need to switch this off and pack it away again.  I am going home today after I have cleaned the kitchen in the old house.  Sorry Judi - I think my prattling on must get confusing sometimes.  This move is the first of 2 or even 3 Becky has planned.  She had to do this one as the house she was in was sold.  She hopes to move back to Yorkshire in the next 3 months so we will have to do it all again and then she would like to buy instead of rent once she has Declan settled in a school.  After the kitchen I have to move a couple of bikes and a trampoline then drive back home.  My van is going in for an MOT at 8:30 tomorrow morning and I forgot to tell my boss that will make me late for work - heyho - I'm sure he'll live.  I will email him tonight.

Hi Lynne.  It's nice you have a chance for a short break in the sun before starting the building work.  Enjoy it.  Get some rest.  I haven't met with Rosemary on this trip as we knew it would be very busy.  I am coming back down here on the 10th May to babysit for a few days while Becky is on a course.  Rosemary & I are going to meet on the 11th.

Best wishes to everyone else.  I haven't managed to catch up properly yet but it sounds as though Gayle, you need to rest up a bit to recover from your journey.  Sue I will have everything crossed for you with the redundancies.  I escaped it again at our place this time so I am sure you will as well.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx