My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Fingers firmly crossed for you Manda, wrapping you in a big hug and remember we will be with you all the way! 

Patricia, lovely to hear from you all the way over there!  The marvels of the internet and also modern aircraft eh?  You have a lovely time xxxx

Weather is still cold wet and miserable here too, but no snow forecast I don't think so commiserations to all you lot up north, I knew there was some benefit to being a southerner.  Just think in little over a year I could convert my two bedrooms that the kids are moving out of and move all you penguins in (you might have to huddle just a little) and we could all live together! Simples!

Head still wirring a little with all that Sam chucks at me (bless her) but I've just eaten a gooey pecan danish so the sugar should keep me going.  Will send you all hugs and love to keep you going through the day, see you later xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi everyone.  It's very cold here but seems to have stopped raining.  Hope you got on okay at the docs Manda.  Can't wait for 12 tomorrow to come round and the start of the long weekend.  I am really quite worn out and ready for it.  Becky & Declan should be here by 2pm.  I am going out for lunch as a colleague is leaving because she has been made redundant tomorrow.  I also have another appointment with the lady from cruse tomorrow so we will see how that goes.

Patricia it is lovely to hear from you way over there.  Have a great time and don't forget the photos.

Rosemary it is funny that you think you will have space for any of us when the kids have moved out - I am sure I thought that and yet I seem to be able to occupy a whole 3 bedroomed house all to myself and still struggle for places to put things!!  Hope eeryone is okay and has some nice things planned for the weekend.  Take care.  Ailsa xxx

Evening girls - hope you're not too deep in snow??  We haven't got any here, thank goodness but we did have a brief thunderstorm yesterday afternoon.  Seems we're in for a mixture of allsorts this weekend!!!!!

Whatever the weather................whatever your plans.............I hope that you have as good a time as you can.........

Love and lots of ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))) for you all

Dot xxxxxxxxxxx

Evening All,   Well we had snow this morning but didn't last to long but it's been a very cold day. Patricia nice to here from you and i hope you have a great time. Helen you are very very busy i think i need you at my house. Been out to Kim's tonight to see Charlie he was having his bath by god he can fairly splash now. Ailsa i hope you have a nice time with Becky and Declan, i am not off over Easter but don't really mind as i would rather be kept busy.  Manda i do hope you have a nice holiday and see how you are when you get back. Gayle you will be getting ready for your hols to i do hope you enjoy it as you deserve a nice rest as you work so hard. Lynne i hope your knee and ankle not giving you to much pain. Love and Hugs to everybody else i have not mentioned but my brain not working well at this time of the night. Think it's time for bed. Night Night  Fiona xxxxxxxxxx

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Patricia, wonderful to hear from you from so far away.  Hope you have a fabulous time and load of photos please.  I should have been sleeping a while ago but of course last minute packing. Work for half a day tomorrow and then I will come home and sort out the cat and get the dog and myself to toronto to drop him with my niece and me to get to the airport.  Such a lot of running around to travel, it is harder now doing it all alone, packing the car, packing for the cat and packing for the dog, just like having kids sometimes.  Looking forward to seeing the ocean again even if it is cold there.  I am leaving here when it is going to be very hot all weekend, summer temps here but I hope Newfoundland has a bit of warmth and sunshine, doesn't really matter, just getting away is all I need.  I will check in during the weekend sometime, hope you all get through this holiday as well as you can.

love

Bren

Morning everyone

Patricia lovely to hear from you

Bren you have a good weekend too

Fiona well done on getting through Monday xx Like you say working wouldnt really have been a problem to me this weekend, dont know why but this weekend has hit me now its approaching. Paul and I loved the long Easter weekend as it was the only time he would really take off with being self employed apart from when we went away so it was a nice few days to spend together. Thought I d done all the firsts now, but oh no!!!

So in my usual way busy busy!! Not a lot planned for Friday but hairdressers and friends on Saturday evening then taking Liam and Nat out for lunch on Sunday. Might be going away with Nat for a couple of nights on Monday.

Nat and I are off the The Trafford Centre today, more prom dress shopping. She tried a lovely one on in Debenhams the other day which looked gorgeous so she might go for that one.

How is everyone, we ve all been quiet lately. Guess we re all feeling the same about the weekend

Have a good day everyone

Helen xxx

Hi to all

I have been trying to keep up with everyone's posts (not easy) but I have had a really bad three weeks, I think I might be starting to come out of it, well I hope I am. The worst time since Colin went. I don't know why it happened all I do know is that I have pushed everyone who has tried to help me away, just have not been able to find words to say just how bad I have felt. Got to the point where I was not even bothered about trying to climb back up, there did not seem to be any point. I have never really been a moody kind of person, so am finding it difficult to cope with my mood swings now. Every feeling and thought feels so real at the time, then when my mood changes I can't believe that how I felt before felt real, if that makes sense?

Well I have finished work now until the 19th and am glad as it has been hard trying to put a brave face on things. Have cried a couple of times at work but I don't like to as I fear people will think I am not up to doing my job.

The only time I feel normal is when I am with my daughter or little Daniel. Rachel has been great and includes me in everything.

Anyway like I said I do feel a bit better than I have of late. I am off to my group tonight, guess I must be feeling better as a couple of days ago I decided not to go again, didn't seem to be any point.

I am sorry I have not been of much support to any of you lately, I hope you are all OK.

Have a good afternoon. Love Lesley x

Huge hugs, lesley - I understand completely  how you have been feeling.

What's the point ? The point is rachel and daniel - the photo of him on FB is gorgeous.

Hang on in there - take care and love that baby boy to bits.

sue xx

Hi Lesley hun

Just want to say Ditto to what Sue said.   xxxxxxxx Judes xxxx