My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

All penguins have attitude!!

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Ah Sue - that pic is just as if I were looking in a mirror.........xxxx

Hi,  I am having a night in to Helen Darren off out as well just finished my ironing and going to watch Casualty next. Not been a nice day here very showery at times. I really must start and get some spring cleaning done to before i start to have Charlie on my day off as will not get much done then. I do hope you had a lovely day at your sons wedding Patricia. Gayle i don't know if you done anything about tickets for John Edwards, but i am like Judi the Sunday would suit me better as i said in text i have took on looking after Charlie on a Thurs for Kim. Nothing planned for tomorrow we will have a hour less in our bed. Lynne and Judi i hope you have a nice night out with your friends.  Sue i do love your pictures you post i don't know where you find them all. I am off to make a coffee and get settled down to watch Casualty. hugs to everyone. Dave enjoy your day tomorrow at football. Fiona xxxxxxxxx

Hello everyone,

Had a busy couple of days (whats new!) so not been about a lot.  Dave - enjoy the football today.  Helen hope you have a great pampering session today - so jealous lol.  Judi & Lynne - hope the sore heads aren't too bad today although Lynne - tut tut lol.  I hope Patricia had a great time at the wedding yesterday and can't wait to hear all about it.  Hugs to Dot, Ailsa, Bren, Lesley, Amanda, Sue and Teri (and anyone else I missed - still half asleep!).  Fiona, thinking of you tomorrow xxx

Yesterday I took the boys up to visit our caravan.  We bought it a couple of years ago and managed a couple of holidays before Wully got sick again.  He then couldn't drive so couldn't tow it and I didn't fancy it so we put it on a site last year for the season.  I think I only used it about 3 times and Wully obviously died whilst it was there although I took him up once for a visit from the hospice but as he was in a wheelchair by then he couldn't go inside and we sat out in the sun outside it having a cuppa.  Anyway, Wully's best friend moved it for me during the winter to another site nearby to the old one.  I found it quite hard yesterday as of course its all happy families at caravan sites plus the actual caravan and idea of it has huge memories of Wully as he loved it and the holidays we did have in it were amazing.  I spoke to the park manager for a while and he seems lovely and very understanding and said that I really will enjoy it and should try to come more often.  He said there is another widow with teenage kids a few caravans down from me too.  Had a few teary moments as I could almost imagine him there - shouting at my dad lol for doing things wrong or not the way Wully would have wanted them done.  Had a meal out afterwards on the way home (my mum and dad had came too) which was okay but the kids were playing up and for a minute I could just have stood up and walked away and kept walking.  They are hard work at times and much as I adore my parents they are so soft with them so its all down to me which is such an overwhelming responsiblity at times.  I'm not in a hurry to meet someone serious but think what guy would ever take the 3 of us on?  Looks like it will be the 3 amigos (thats what we call ourselves) forever lol.   We are off to Tenerife 2 weeks today and much as I am looking forward to it in some ways I am dreading it lol.  I will need a holiday when I get back!!!  Having a quiet busy day today lol.  Staying at home and not going out but going to get stuck into my work this afternoon/evening so that I maybe have a less stressful week at work - fingers crossed anyway!

I think we also have 2 groups now for John Edwards so I will book Lynne and I's tickets and if someone could volunteer to book the Glasgow tickets for everyone so that you are all sitting together.

Take care everyone.

Gayle xxx

hello, I survived my 5 month day yesterday with loads of tears and some good chat on fb, thanks guys.  I spent far too much time on fb but that is ok.  Today I must get something done, this house is turning into a real disaster. 

Gayle, anyone would be lucky to have you three.  It is still very early for that though although I know everyday it would be so nice to have someone to help out with all the little things that I took for granted and now have to do myself.  You should be proud of yourself at how well you are doing and going to the caravan would be so very difficult.  I am dreading and looking forward to going to gaspe in July as that place belongs to Dan's family and we spent many happy times there over the last 30 years.  A lot of his family will be there so I hope that will be a comfort to me as well.

Lynne, hope you feel better soon clumsy. 

I have to start packing for Newfoundland, they have snow there! We haven't had any for a long time and I am not up to putting my boots back on again. 

Patricia hope the wedding went well and you are feeling ok.  Manda and Leslie and all of you, hope this day is a better one.

love Bren

Afternoony!!!

Gayle you are a lovely person, someone one day will be very lucky to `take on the 3 amigos!!!!!` You had a tough day yesterday, be gentle on yourself.

Bren well done getting through yesterday, I also spent far too much time in facebook yesterday lol x but good banter x

Lynne hope you re feeling better now x Judi how was your night? Fiona enjoy your quiet day x

Ailsa how are you this week? Havent seen you on for a while x

Dave will be celebrating....Southampton won!!!

I m watching Liverpool now after my lovely afternoon. What a great way to spend a Sunday afternoon, hydrotherapy/steam pool with all the jets while eating fruit kebabs and having drinks followed by more drinks, a fantastic massage with hot and cold oils and a lovely lunch with lovely friends. Feel so chilled and relaxed now. Going to treat myself to all my lotions and potions later in a nice bubble bath, finish the pampering day off!

Hope Patricia had a great day yesterday, and hope everyone else is ok this weekend. The clocks have gone forward and the sun is shining, makes you feel so much better!!

Bug higs to everyone

Helen xxx

What a lovely uplifting post Helen . xx  Gayle i'll echo what helen has said , someone will think themseves very lucky to be part of your family and one day the 3 amigoes will become the 4 muscatears .. aia'm feeling a bit better thank you , i really should know better i'm far to old for all that lol ..

Thanks Lynne x I feel full of the joys of spring today!! I ll enjoy it while it lasts lol x

You re not too old, good on you for enjoying yourself....just be careful in future lol!

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Evening girls - just dropping by to leave (((((((((hugs))))))))) for those that need them tonight - though having read the latest posts you all seem a bit more positive just now??????

Love and more ((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))

Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi everyone.  You have all be very busy this weekend.  Your pamper session sounds great helen - glad it was so good.  I went out for a couple of hours last night but as Stu was on earlies today I had to come home at 9:30.  I was glad really as I had enjoyed it up to then but don't think I wanted to stay much longer really.  I have been to my neighbours for my dinner and very nice it was too!

Lynne I really can't imagine you living on a mobile home site at all so go for the appartment.  You will be older soon enough!!

Gayle there will be lots of opportunity for the 3 amigos to become 4 and plenty of takers, you watch.  I hope you got done what you needed to do this afternoon.  You did really well going to the caravan with the boys and all your memories.  I am sure you will find the next visit a little easier.  Enjoy Tenerife.

Hope  you enjoy the football Dave.  I went to Wembly in April 08 for the Barnsley Cardiff FA cup semi-final.  We had a great time.  I'm sure you will as well.

I will need to get my act together next week and get my head round when we are suppose to be going to see JE.  I think it is the 12th in Glasgow.  I think it  is Fiona, Judi, Teri & I who are going to that one.  What do you think Judi - does that sound right?  If that is right and we can get tickets I will arrange to see some of my family while I am up there.

I'm not having a great time right now as I have a few too many memories rumbling round my brain.  I'm doing what we do though and trying to get on with it.  Hopefully I will feel a little better tomorrow - probably coming down with something.  I should really get off to bed so take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx