My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

She wouldn't have been on her own Manda, Grandad would have been there to take her with him and she went peacefully.  Hugs to you dear, it's hard thinking you didn't get to say goodbye, but if you think about it when you saw her last you were looking forward to your holiday you said a lovely natural goodbye and she knew you loved her.  Take care xxxxx

Manda - I'm sorry to hear the news about your Nan.  At 93 she had a good long life and falling asleep is the best way to leave and be with your Grandad.  There's no doubt he would have been waiting for her..............

Special comforting (((hugs))) for you  Dot xxxxx

Evening all - I'm back in caring mode again - well for now anyway!!!  So all that need to be in the middle get waddling and I'll put my flippers out to keep you safe.

Retired brain cell is not functioning at all tonight so I'm stuck for things to say to you all...........

So will just leave more love and (((((((((hugs)))))))))) for you all

Dot xxxxxxxxxx

Hi everyone.  Nice to have you and H home Manda and glad you both had a good time.  I am sorry you came home to the news about your nan.  Sending you lots of ((((((hugs)))))).

Rosemary I am having another quite one tonight.  Doing my own form of relaxing - catching up on things without anyone under my feet.  I agree about the hot chocolate and the book being far more relaxing than TV.  I am trying to watch things I have sky+'d - even manage to make that a chore don't I? - as both boxes are almost full.  Once I catch them up I fully intend to sit and read in the conservatory like I used to do before Chris was ill.  Tonight I have managed to connect my lappy to my new modem wirelessly so that is a gold star to me.  the lappy is off into PC world next week for a health check to speed it up a bit.

I am glad to hear that Helen, Nat, Liam & Lesley are each feeling a bit better today.  I have had a much better day as well.  I can nip round to the outside of the huddle and let someone else in the middle now.  Thank you all for letting me in the middle for a while xx

Bren what a shame you and your niece both have colds.  I hope you feel better very soon.  Enjoy Saturday.

Patricia I hope your shift and the patients are kinder to you tonight. 

I too have forgotten what else has been said so I will nip off and take a bath and then have a look back in.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xx 

Evening All,   Well we have had more snow here today again, hope you are all doing ok tonight, Manda sorry to here about your nan and i send you hugs. Rosemary glad to hear Dan feeling better and he can get on with his hols now. One of my friends husband has had a mini stroke at the weekend but he is doing ok, then my other friend phoned me this morning to say her friend had been found dead in her chair last night she was such a nice lady. There is always something. Well i better get off to bed as working in the morning. Luv and Hugs to you all.  Fiona xxxxxxxxxxxxx  

Hi.  Helen it is looking like you have the charity night all worked out so I'm sure that means it will be a great success and a lovely tribute to Paul.  Best wishes to everyone else.  Ailsa xx

Hi everyone, Snow, snow and more snow - just call me Nanuck of the North from now on I think - although I don't fancy eating blubber.

Fiona, sorry about the sad news you have had, you are right- there does seem to be so much of it - or maybe we are just susceptible to hearing it more, I know that a lot of the time that I seem to thin "gosh all I keep hearing is sad news" but maybe there is just as much good stuff out there, I hope so. 

Manda, I am glad that you and Hayley had a good holiday and so sorry to hear about your Nan, but as the others have said she will have been met by Grandpa and at peace. 

Oh Rosemary ..... blame the dog why don't you!!!! Nice try.  So glad the texting and phoning has stopped .... now that doesn't sound right but you know what I mean.  Ailsa - well done you for having two consecutive nights of 'Ailsa time' even if it sounds slightly exhausting to me.  

Dottee I am so glad that you are feeling a bit brighter - long may it continue.  And Bren, just you do a bit of self cossetting, it sounds as if you haven't been looking after yourself enough, Napoleon has diplomatic immunity you know and can cross borders without a passport - don't be surprised if he arrives at your door to see you are ok.

I should be meeting with Gayle tomorrow, just slighty worried about her driving through the grotty weather but fingers crossed we have time for a coffee before she has to be 'Miss Accountancy Professional' to her clients. 

Am shattered tonight so will send HUGE hugs to all and lots of love.  Judi xxx

Hi everyone,

Sorry I haven't posted this week but I have been keeping up with you all.  I've just had a bit of a meltdown this week with one thing and another.  When I get like this I just don't even feel like talking and just want to hide under the duvet (which I know isn't a good idea!).  I just want Wully back.  I hate this new life and would give anything just to have him here cuddling me right now telling me everything is okay.  What did I do so bad to deserve this?  Its just so unfair.  I am sorry for the down post and I am sure I will pick up again but just need to stop this spiral of despair.  I better give myself a shake as I have a big day today and need to pull myself together.  The roads are supposed to be bad up north so hopefully will get there in time to see my auntie Judes.

Take care everyone.

Gayle x

Well, i am hoping that i have averted a disaster. I fell alseep at the laptop with a coffee in my hand. i woke up when the said coffee spilled all over me and dripped onto the computer keyboard. Aaaarrrrggghhhhh................ All because  wanted to drop by and see what you had all been up to.

I had a better shift patient wise but had a colleague who seems to think I am an idiot. Now I'm allowed to call myself tht but she isn't. Suffice it to say that myself and the healthcare spent the night with a brush, shovel and mop where the sun don't shine. I got sick of hearing my name being called.

I hope that everyone has a reasonable day. Sending loving thoughts to you all.

Love aqnd angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

oh gayle, so sorry to hear you are having such a tough time. My thoughts are with you x x x