Awww Dot that is so wonderful.  I'm in tears again but no - you are not upsetting me and never have.  I love men who are embarrassing.  Chris was always showing me up with his very public antics.  They make you laugh and that is a very attractive attribute.

Glad you are back on line Lynne.  Rosemary what a day you have had with the cat.  Glad it is sorted out.

I finished my flatpack building and still only have the one screw missing.  Decided I need one more piece of furniture to finish the organisation though so I can collect the missing screw then.  Gives me an excuse to eat swedish meatballs again as well!!

After feeling abandoned over the weekend it has finished on a nice note as I have had a lovely dinner at my neighbours and my youngest daughter has been to visit.  We have had a good chat about me being on my own with Chris all weekend (that's how it feels) and I am actually quite glad that is what happened this weekend now.

I am going to hibernate through valentines day next weekend I think.  Chris and I made a bit of a special day of it if we could.  I have bought 2 new charms for my bracelet to mark valentines day - a 'C' and an 'A' - but I think the couples thing is beginning to get to me.

Shopping in Liverpool Helen? - that is one of the activities Stu & Suzanne have planned for me when we go in April.  I will assume that you not buying anything is just a glitch and that Stu is right and it is a good place to shop!!

Sorry but I have not made notes this time and now I have forgotten what anyone else wrote!  Sue, Gayle, Patricia & Judi, hope you are okay and also Fiona, Dave & Lesley.  I can't remember hearing from Manda either.  Have a good week everyone.  Ailsa xx

Sue xx

Evening All,   Hope you are all doing ok and that's the weekend passed again, well it has been an up and down day for me today, the day started off with me having a cry after listening to some music (why do i do it). I then just kept myself busy doing housework i just hate being in the house without Derek, then one of Derek's friends phoned me and i ended up breaking down again, so i ended up just going to my dad's as i feel i have to be strong in front of him. I have Charlie tomorrow for the day as Kim going in to school so looking forward to that i hope i have not lost my touch. Then off to London on Tues to see my aunt it will be a long day but doing for my mum. Well i better get to bed as will have to be up early in morning. Luv and Hugs to you all.  Fiona xxxxxxxx

Hi everyone

I have been having a down weekend as well.  I was pretty good last week, then Dan`s cousin called early in the week, they were inseparable when we first met 33 years ago and had got back together a couple of years ago.  M has been great, phones me every few weeks to keep in touch but he was missing Danny last week and I got him out of his sadness but think it stuck to me.  I know Valentine`s Day is also looming in my mind but thankfully I will be away with a single friend so we will not have to bother with it and I am glad it is on a weekend, won`t be quite so much of it at school.

You are so lucky to have school holidays now.  I need to move to England, we don`t get our break until the middle of March!  I do have Monday as a holiday but that is only in the province of Ontario and is fairly new.  I have never been happy to see Mondays come but lately I am glad to get back to work and people again.  I find it so lonely here on the weekends.  I can call friends and they would come but don`t feel up to it.  I did take the dog out with a friend yesterday and her 3 dogs, they had a great time running around and good for me to get out in the sunshine.  Just feeling a bit sorry for myself.

Leslie, I loved the way you put your feelings. 

take care, have a good night

Bren, Fiona, Ailsa and anyone else who is feeling down (Rosemary) get into the middle of the huddle. It is a lovely warm and safe place and will I am sure help to make you feel loved and secure.

Everyone else I hope that you have a good day.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

I think I should stay up later, you all post too much when I've gone to bed!!

Hugs to Bren, Fiona & Gayle, here's hoping you both have a better day today.

Rosemary your cat story made me smile, I have just given Catface some left over lamb for his brekkie but he dragged the pieces all over my clean kitchen floor, he thought they were tasty toys! Had to clean everything up and give him some Whiskers, lol.

Fiona, I hope you have a lovely trip to London, I love it down there. Although have not been in ages, Colin hated it!

Ailsa, you sound on the same wavelength as me, Valentines day, the charm idea is just lovely, you will remember Chris every time you wear it. Like you it was doing my head in while out shopping on Sat' so in the end I thought OK, I will just treat myself, just like Colin would have done, hence the very expensive but delicious choccies!

Well must get my lazy bum out of bed in a min' and get ready for work. I have had a calm and reasonably good weekend. It worked for me imagining this is just another time apart from Colin, just have to stop myself from remembering for how long it is going to be. Everytime I felt like I was going to have a wobble, I thought of him just somewhere thinking of me and sending me his love, then I felt OK again.  :-)

Really wish I could remember what everyone has said. Oh yes, Helen, I think you need some shopping lessons from Gayle and I, pair of trackie bottoms, huh, get your big bag and walking shoes on girl! After half term I'm planning a girlie shopping trip with my daughter. It will start early and include morning coffee, lunch, and a champagne and cake afternoon tea (substitute champers for tea!!) and home in time for dinner. Can't wait.

Have a good day everyone, speak later xxx

Just off to a blood donating session - I'll be back!! (i hope!)

    An armful?????

Thank goodness for that I thought it was me being dramatic and beginning to hate every mention of Valentine's day.  We didn't make too much of it, especially in the last few years, we both agreed that there are 364 other days that we could and did love each other and often made it special, but Valentines day itself, as with so many other days, has become so commercial why spend loads on it when we didn't need to.  It's just he often did and I would get a surprise bunch of flowers or chocolates - not a wonderful, public display like yours Dottee but each of them are different and special to us in their own way aren't they?  What a wonderful man you have Dot. 

Patricia thank you xxxx keep meaning to ask why/how your nickname came about "Dev" and do you prefer it to Patricia?  Or was it a special name between you and Ray?  Forgive me if I am being insensitive here, not meaning to xxxx

Well I can't write anymore, I can only just see bits of Ailsa and Sue's posts and haven't got my notebook with me, but all your news was very interesting I promise! Love and hugs to you all xxxxxx

Rosemary, the name 'Dev' originated from the 'whatnow' site. When I first registered I called myself 'Devastated' because I was exactly that. Devastated by Ray's ever progressing illness. Someone on the site suggested it was too sad a name and that I should perhaps change it. So I shortened it to 'Dev'. Most people who know me from there call me by that name but people from 'share' know me as 'foreveryours' because I joined that site after Ray had died.  When the two sites merged I was put on as 'foreveryours'. So am known by various titles depending on who is talking to me.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Ailsa Liverpool is a great place to shop, dont think we were really in the mood yesterday x You ll enjoy it x

Lesley think I do need some lessons though lol.

We didnt used to do much for Valentines Day but we did always send each other a card and would make an effort and have a nice meal (out in the early days but at home later on lol). Still nice x

Only 3 more get ups until half term. Been making arrangements to meet up with a few friends that I dont get to see all the time and off to Newcastle next Wednesday with Liam for uni open day. Trial run for our get together!!

Been to the gym after work tonight, far too busy for my liking!! All these people that have joined in January, will see how long it lasts????!!!!!

Hope everyone is feeling better today, what is this rollercoaster like!! Still taking us up and down but we re hanging on xxx

Bug higs Helen xxxx