My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Evening all , ha ha i'm still laughing at the thought of Gayle jumping up and down , save you going on the wii fit if you jump up and down enough lol , Glad you had a good night xx Rosemary , you really should learn to share , its not fair 3 !!!1 firemen , i ask you lol . Dottee , i'm laughing at you aswell (but in a nice way xx) how could you upset anyone , we talk about "strange "things happening all the time . When i was working last wed and they we're putting the head stone , which i didn't know at the time , i had been sat in the ambulance with my eyes closed on a long journey (no i wasn't driving at tne time lol ) when i had a sense of smelling cigar smoke (Gordon used to smoke them before he got ill ) i opened my eyes and said to my crew mate that i had a feeling Gordon was trying to tell me something . Well when i'd finished work if the gates are still open i go to the cemmy , even if its for 5 mins , well that day i called at my DIL  , then i called at the chemist for some things for dad , and at any time i could have gone to the cemmy but i was making excuses up in my head not to go and it was when i got home that i got the message to say the H/S had gone in , I do think Gordon kept me away that day as i know the shock would have been to much , so yes i do believe our loved ones are with us , helping us to get through each day , i just wish sometimes that they could help my internet connection !!!! What a carry on , my dongle (mobile intenet ) stopped working last night , i was on the phone first thing this morning and they said they would send me a new sim card out in 5 days , i said that was too long , and i didn't think it was the sim card , i thought it was thr dongle itself . He said i could go into the o2 shop in town and ask them for a sim card , which i did , still not convinced it was that , but i went home to try it and NO it didn't work , so off of i went to town again , into the shop and i told them it was deffinately the dongle that wasn't working , so they said it would have to go off for repair and it would be 5 days aghhh , i said i couldn't manage (and i meant it ) i then saw that they sold dongles for 10 pound so i said i would buy 1 whilst mine was in for repair , she said do you still want me to send yours off , off course i do , i've paid for that . When she was ringing it in the till she said , oh sorry its 20 pound , its only 10 if you buy a phone or laptop ,, by this time i was fed up , it was getting late so i said , just give me the dongle , i'll pay 20 just give it me . I think she thinks i'm a mad woman mmm probably right but i;ve got internet lol . Sorry i've rambled on so much i 've forgotten what everybody has wrote .. Big hugs xxxxxxx

Lynne, you made me laugh - I too would have gave them 20 quid - no internet for 5 days are they mad!

I finally remembered what it was that was bugging me an hour late!  Anyone else totally fed up with Valentines Day advertising - it is doing my head in and can't wait till it is over with.  Yet another anniversary or date to pass.  Although to be fair maybe it is not bothering me too much or it wouldn't have taken me over an hour to remember what it was that I was annoyed about or is just that I am having one of those daft days again!

Gayle x

Gayle , at that point i would have given them 500 pound once i realised i could get one , i couldn't have another night like i had sat night , i was ready for throwing the laptop through the window lol . Yes valentines day is doing my head in , even tho we didn't really bother about it , its just all the couples thing . Oh well , we've all survived worse xxxxx

Girls - I often think I'm married to the least romantic of men - then Alan does something unexpected!!!  Such as this morning he bought me the biggest box of chocs from Thorntons and sang to me - in the shop!!!  So Valentine's Day this year came early for me - when usually it passes completely unnoticed!!!!!! xxx

He had been at the Oramorph again........................

Aww Dottee give the man a break. That was a lovely gesture x x x

Patricia - we give each other a hard time - but he always manages to take my breath away with unexpected gestures!!!  Then I'm left speechless...........in tears.........and so very very grateful that he's mine - and I'm his completely.............

And..................yes he does know.............let's face it after 40+ years of telling he should.....................

awww, Dottee, yours and Alan's is a perfect love story.

May you have many, many more valentine days together.

sue xx

Dottee I have no doubt he does know how much you love him and you him but it is so lovely that he can still surprise you. Ray was very much like that too. Full of surprises. It amde him really happy to know that he could do that and he was always at great pains to tell me how much he still loved me and 'fancied' me after so many years together. I had a priviledged marriage. I wish you many more years togehter hun so that he can surprise you again and again x x x