My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Afternoon all , Patricia , Lesley ans Amanda , big big hugs to you all , into the middle you go , i've been in there far to long and thanks to Gayle i'll stay on the outside for a while .and i hope you are all feeling better soon , i was where you all are a few days ago and thats why i wanted to go and meet Gayle to shake myself , i decided i was fed up with waiting for people to include me in there life and i decided i wanted a life of my own so i thought there is only one person who can get a life and so it was up to me to go and find it . I could have done the usual things this weekend , my sister was having a party but i decided i wanted something different . I'm rambleing now so i'll just say Gayle is an amazing woman , its hard to believe that she is the same as my daughter and she has been through so much . We never stopped talking and you find out so much more about someone when your talking face to face rather than just on line , i cant wait till march the 13th now  . We went for a meal last night and we had to walk at the side of the canel and Gayle made me walk on the inside lol . We then had a drink in a very noisy pub and then went back to the hotel for a drink and before we knew it , it was 12.15 . I really enjoyed the timei spent with her and yes i've got a photo yippee , i'll post it on face book lol .    We talked about you all (sorry ) but it was all good xx Gayle will be about 4 hours into her 6 hour drive now so hopefully she'll get on line at sometime later .xx Helen are youn hung over ? Just got a few jobs to do now and then i'll put the photos on .

Take care xx

 Lynne xxx

Lynne, glad you had a good time. Gayle hope your journey is not to arduous and that you arrive home relaxed. x x

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E7VlU-9ZUV0   finding this song very appropriate at the moment.

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Lynne anbd Gayle so great that you got together, glad you had fun.  I have my laptop back, cold is fading away so am not doing too bad today.  I have been reading all the posts from the last few days and feel exactly the same as you all.  I am alone but don't want to be alone.  Although there are times when I have friends and family calling, chatting on email, that I just want them all to go away and leave me in peace.  I guess I don't know what I want either, actually I do, I just want my life back.  Last night was tough, couldn't stop crying but today I have some sorting of clutter to do and need to walk the dog and do some errands so will keep myself busy.  Yesterday I took the dog to my vice-principal's house.  The vp will take care of him while I am away in two weeks so I wanted him to get used to the house.  The visit went really well, he has two small children and Max was so good.  I will not worry about him now when I am gone to Montreal.  Then a friend called and took me for coffee but coming home and spending the evening alone is always hard.  I know it is early and last week was tough, 3 months since Dan died and 4 months since he went into hospital and never came home, he went into hospital for a biopsy and was supposed to come home that same day.  But a new month and I hope we all get a little stronger.  Hugs to you all.

Bren

Afternoon xx

Lyyne so glad you and Gayle met up and had a good night. Looking forward to meeting you all in March too xx Wonder our ears werent burning last night lol x

Like you say we have to make our own lives, friends and family will always be there for us but they can`t lead our lives for us can they, that s up to us!!

No I m not hungover, went for a meal and had a couple of glasses of wine. Was a lovely night. My sat nav did me proud lol x

Amanda hope you re feeling better today, and Patricia and Lesley too x Life can seem so pointless but Judi has said it perfectly as usual. Can t really add to that, it does get easier to get through `those` days and things can start to be enjoyable.  Hang in there xx

Ailsa how has your weekend been?

Love to everyone else on here, hope your weekends have been ok. Need to get off the couch and do some jobs, just had an afternoon nap lol

Helen xxx

Hi everyone,

Well like Lynne said had a fab weekend.  It was just the tonic I was needing too and really enjoyed myself.  Paul McKenna was good and quite funny and then meeting Lynne was great.  We had a lovely night and we did raise a glass to you all.  Lynne was a lovely person and cheered me up.  And yes she did take pictures lol!  She said I am too ugly to put my pics on facebook (I think she was kidding lol).  Can't wait till March.

Sorry to hear so many of you are having bad weekends and I wish I could say more to help.  Sending hugs to you all.

Gayle xxx

dear Lynne and gayle,

So glad you had such a fab weekend; Gayle, i am 1005 behind you in not letting Lynne walk next to the canal.

sue xx

supposed to say 100%    not 1005!!!!   My 'more' button doesn't work!

Ha Ha Sue , as if i'd anything so stupid as to fall in the canal lol . Gayle glad you got back safe and the pics are on face book now , i decided you wasn't so bad after all lol xxx