My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Lynne, my love, are you ok? you've been quiet this week, and now you say it's been the week from hell - am worried about you

sue xx

Any problems - napoleon will help

I've P/m you Sue xxxx

jan nina jill so sorry for you rsad loss. I hope that you can find some peace somewhere along the way. Also I hope that your own illness is resolving.

Lynne, I am sorry to hear you have had such a bad week. I hope that things are improving for you now.

Gayle enjoy your trip to ~Birmingham x

I hope everyone is doing a little better this weekend

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Well here in sunny Birmingham.  Took me 8 hours to get here but I stopped twice for something to eat so about 6 hours driving time I think.  Quite enjoyed it.  But my weekend is about to get much better - Lynne is coming to stay!!! Yay - watch out Birmingham lol xxx Thanks Lynne x

Oh how exciting Lynne, I hope you and Gayle have a great time! It is a shame you are not in Manchester then I could have come too. x

Hello to Jan Nina Jill, sorry to hear about your husband, I hate the word cancer, so many ruined lifes  :-(

Judi, have a good time at the auction, your outfit sounds wonderful :-p

Dot, I know just what you mean about walking in the rain, I live very near to Saddleworth Moors, I love the way they are so barren and wild. Where do you live?

Ailsa, well done for selling the van. Everything is so hard. Colin's car, which he loved, went to my daughter and SIL, Colin used to give Rachel a lift to work every morning and his car was bigger than Dave's so I said they could have it. I couldn't bear seeing it just sitting there doing nothing. It is quite nice now to see it with the baby seat in, I think Colin would have approved  :-)

I hope the next few days are better than the last few. I don't mind admitting I have felt terrible. I have dreaded coming home from work and on a couple of occasions, have come straight through the front door and upstairs to bed. I really must try to shake the mood off as it really is not going to change anything is it?

Hello to Helen, Sue, Patricia, Fiona, Manda (thanks for your p/m, I will ring next time, promise!) and Dave, hope I've not missed anyone, have a good weekend.

Love Lesley xx

Hmm, for got to tell you, had a nice cheque from Inland Revenue this week, I feel another shopping spree looming!!!!!  xx

Knew I would miss someone!!! Hello to Quill, Bren and Rosemary too.  xx

Morning all , well just a quick one , got lots to do now before i go and meet Gayle in birmingham . Just wanted to say , i am ok , i have had a really bad few days through other things that have been hapening (dad mainly) he's getting on ok now but glad this last week is over and just to finish the week off really bad , our last patient was a dying man who could have gone at any time  but his family wanted him home , i knew it was going to be bad but as soon as i got on the ward i saw the pallitive care nurse who had looked after Gordon and i broke down , she came and hugged me and said if i found it to hard i should get another crew totake him home  , my crew mate also wanted to pass the job over but his wife was desperate to get him home so i said lets just get on with it , i cried all the way through moving him , i had to keep appologising to the nurses , they said dont worry its only cos you care . When we got him home his daughters came running out and said is he still with us , i told them he was and we all cried again . We got him on his bed and everybody was thanking us for getting him home so i'm really glad we did it . It was one of the hardest jobs i've done but i am proud of myself for getting him home , if i'd passed on the job i dont think he would have made it , he deteriated so badly on the 30 min journey . Hopefully if i have to do anything like this again it wont be as bad next time but i'll never stop caring about the poor families and patient for what they have to go through ,we all know that dont we ...

 Looking forward to meeting Gayle , hope she knows what she's letting herself in for lol . Everybody have a good weekend . Patricia thank you for your text last night xx Thanks for your words of wisdom again Sue xx Hope everybody else is having a peacefull few days xx

Take care xx

 Lynne xx

morning Lesley , sorry we must have crossed posts , seems like we've all had a bad few days , hopefully the next week willbe better . Lesley birmingham cant be that far from manchester lol (train ride) I.ve decided to go on the train , how lazy am i , Gayle drives for 6 hours and i wont drive for 2 lol .

 Take care xx Lynne xx

gayle and lynne - enjoy your time in birmingham.

sue xxx

now I'm replying to myself - how sad is that!

I just wanted to say thank you to you all for the warm huddle -I've moved back out to the edge now to make room for someone else.

we have a covering of snow again -  enough is enough.

sue xx