My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Hi Ailsa, Not in bed yet thanks for posting, can you help me i am trying to delete a lot of old private messages i have but they will not delete for me what am i doing wrong. Fiona xxxxxx  

Evening all

Am a bit restless tonight, think that maybe all yesterday's excitement made today a bit 'bland'.  Am seriously considering going to bed early (i.e. before midnight)!!!

Fiona you have made the booking and are planning to come so give yourself a big pat on the back - cos it is not always so easy.  Because mum and dad live so far away over the years I have travelled there alone a few occasionally both by train and by plane ....... but never by automobile!  So travelling doesn't phase me particularly...... but ....

I think we all have our 'little things' that are a particular challenge to us.  For me it is driving any distance, by that I mean over 50  miles or so and as a consequence I avoid doing it at all.  And look at most of your guys, you drive all over the place in all weathers.  Or anything to do with garages/servicing the car - which is quite ridiculous as I am quite capable of SOUNDING as if I know what I am talking about, but I just get all in a tizzy as I convince myself they think "Oh - here's a right one coming, we'll make a packet here"! 

So whatever it is that sends the shivers down your spine, just know that each and everyone of us has something that gives us the same effect, and therefore a group of tiny wee penguins will be flapping around your feet gently pushing you in the right direction - just as I know they will be round mine urging me on when I go to "Joe's - only here to rip Judi off - Garage" with my car!!

Night all ..... may be .... it is still early yet for me.

Judi xxx

Just dropping by whilst I have a couple of minutes free. Tonight has been fairly settled so far so I am hoping that no surprises greet me before morning handover. I will try to log in later tonight as I will be at home but may of course be dozing as I often do when I have been working. (no real sleep just doze on and off).

You have all been very busy posting but I am kind of at a loss as to anything constructive to say.

take care all my penguin friends x Especialy Lesley. I am not sure what has happened to you but it sounds painful. x x x

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

hello all

patricia i fell on the ice and have broken my right wrist as well asbruised my bach, bum and shoulder. i'm sorry but can't post much now it takes too long with one finger of left hand.

ailsa i have not booked train onlibne before do they send your ticket in post?

hope everyone is ok, am trying to keep up with you all on fb

feel so frustrated, wish colin was here cant do much and am already bored.

Hi everyone.  Lesley Becky had me use www.thetrainline.com to book mine.  They have arrived in the post today.  I had choices including collecting them on the day but because there was plenty of time I had them sent to me.  Hope your wrist is not too painful today.  Sorry I can't remember any of the other posts so will have to send this and go back to reading!  Ailsa xxx

Afternoon All . well the snow has all gone here too but i still think we've not done yet but as long as its all gone for march 13th , we dont want nothing to get in the way of that , Sorry to the ones who cant make it , but hopefully we all do it again xx Lesley you poor thing , A and E have been packed out all week this week so i know how easy it is to slip , all i can keep thinking is , we are going to be so busy in 6 weeks or so when we are taking people back to have there pots off , and then it will be months of physio for the ones that have broken legs and hips . Hopefuly you've got your ain under control now , Patricia is the best one to ask about pain relief xx Helen i hope you had a good afternoon with your physic and i cantn wait to hear about it . By the way your daughter is verrrry funnny lol xx Judi , hope you managed to get some sleep and are a little more settled now . How long is your train journey , you are a star xx I'm booking my tickets after i've done this , Ailsa cant wait to meet you at the station , i'll be the one causing havoc somewhere lol xx.Amanda and Lesley have you managed to sort your trains out ? Gayle oh mighty one , very brave to drive , i couldn't face it , do to much of it already xx Sue hope your ok , and i really wish you could have come to the meet but i know we all have lifes aswell xx Bren i dont know why your not coming , just cos you live a few miles away lol and the freezing rain that comes from your country must be one of the worst things to "try " and drive in ,

 xx Hi to everybody else , hope your doing ok . XX

I'm going to a 40th tonight with my sons and wifes , which i am looking forward to but i know i'm going to see a lot of old friends who i haven't seen for a long time , so i'm hoping things go ok . Not a thing from my S/D 's but its what i expected , but i'm not letting it upset me . Dad is a little better in him self , but roll on a week on wed when he should have the feed tube out . Have a good evening everyone xxx

Take care

 Lynne xxx

Hi Fiona.  I have never tried to delete old private messages before so I just had a go.  You can only delete them when they are not open.  But if you click on private messages and bring up your list you will find a cross to the right of each message.  Click on the cross next to the message you want to delete.  A window will open and ask if you are sure.  If you say yes the message gets deleted.  Hope that helps.  Ailsa xxx

Now I have re-read the other posts I am back yet again.  I can't wait to meet you either Lynne.  I am sure I will find you near the chaos!!

Judi you are so right about different things bothering different people.  I drive everywhere and anywhere but I fret about being able to park when I get there!  I love to drive and just got a new sat nav last week.  I won't take chances about parking as I am concerned about getting clamped.  I drive a van so I can't get into just any old car park.  City centre car parks tend to have small bays close together.  That is why I am getting the train to Newcastle.  The driving wouldn't bother me but I would worry about the parking all the way!  I'm quite good at actually parking as Chris taught me how to use my mirrors properly years ago so it can't be that.  I think I just worry there won't be anywhere to park or there will be a height restriction.  Chris never worried about that, he just assumed there would be somewhere to stick it.

Hope work is going okay Patricia.  Lynne & Helen enjoy your evenings out.  Take care everyone else.  Ailsa xxx

Hi again , my tickets are booked yippeee , and i've used the same web site as you Ailsa , mine are coming by first class post too . I dont mind driving at all but i just thing going by train takes a lot of preasure off and we'll arrive nice and relaxed . My recent trip to scotland was fine so i thought why not use the train again . xxxxxxxHow many days is it ????

Hi Ailsa

How bizarre is that - I am reknowned for my parking - friends even just stop in the road, ring my bell and get me to do it!!!  But drive onto a mortorway or dual carriageway ..... nnnooooooooo ........ I would be the one stationary at the end of the slip road with my indicator on waiting for a REALLY big gap while those behind would be swearing and tooting their horns .. haha.

Am off to a friend's house this evening, she is having an evening of 'like minded people' (I think she means fools) her mum has made hotpot and she is having a tombola and a wii dancing competition to raise funds for Macmillan.  She phoned the other night, all of a tizzy, cos she didn't know whether to invite me incase 'the cause' upset me.  At the time we were all going mad booking our hotels, so I was laughing and saying "Oh let me assure you Macmillan is something I support wholeheartedly, or rather should I say it supports me!"

Hope everyone is okay today.  Dottee - have you reached the top of the wall yet?