My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

How sad am i !!!

just soooo excited because - tesco have delivered my shopping, and it's all there, and it's sooo easy, and i am truly converted!!!

Weh - hey!!!

You`re not sad Sue, it`s the future!!!

Wey hey!!

Just done all my ironing. Will be going to work tomorrow for a rest xx Thinking about writing some xmas cards but not looking forward to that!

Well done to those who have put their trees out, I might get the bits and pieces out later, Tree next weekend, too early for a real one yet.

Hugs to Fiona and Patricia for this coming week, bug higs ((((())))

Ailsa and Lynne did you have a good Saturday night.

I was watching Colin Fry this morning on Sixth Sense. He had a one to one sitting with a lady who had lost her husband. The husband was sending her a message to say he was`free` now and out of pain. Colin said he liked passing those messages on as it was a testament to say that the people who are left here owe it to their loved ones who have suffered to live a happy life and then through us our loved ones will experience that happiness with us. A thought for the day perhaps!!

Love ahd hugs to everyone

Helen xxx

Hi All , well i'm shattered , after going out last night i was still detemined to get to the grave and "sort it out" , it had been raining all night so i was gutted but the sun came out about 10 so i went off to buy 3 bags of slate , , i must have looked a sight , wellies , old fleece , old jeans and covered in mud . As people walked past me as i was putting the slate down , i could see they thought i was mad (oh well nothing new there ) i moved all the vases and other things that are up there , put the slate down , cleaned everthing and put it all back , i feel so much better now . The surrounding area is still a mess but i'm fighting a losing battle with that , just hope we have a couple of months with no rain , its probably a good thing the head stone has been delayed as i want to put all new fencing up too but i need some dry weather for that too . My son turned up just as i had finished everthing , thats good timing for you , he helped clear up tho . I then cleaned the car inside and out phew and still feel a little hung over , i will be glad of my bed tonight . Last night was a good night , but my friends son didn't get throught to the final of singing comp , he was a little gutted but he is only 10 and he's got plenty of time . it wasn't really the ideal comp fpor him as it was so noisy and you couldn't really hear his voice . My friend and her daughter are both in the 2nd semi final next sat so have to rely on them now . I cant go and watch them as its the christmas do at work so i'm hoping they get throught to the final which is on the 19th .

Helen thank you for printing that about Colin fry it makes a lot of sense and i'm sure he does bring a lot of comfort to a lot of people . Natalie is having fun with your face book status isn't she ?  lol xx

Sue i've used Tesco online too , usually around christmas , but as a new tesco extra has just been built a 5 min walk away i'll not bother this year , i might just walk over , its a waste of time trying to park , its a massive car park but still packed all the time . Hope your feeling a bit better now . xx

Fiona the baby pictures are really lovely , what a good idea to release a balloon with little Charlie , i did this with my little grand kiddies on Gordons birthday , most landed up the tree so hopefully yours will go all the way up xx

Gayle hope you've had no more "little visitors" . hope your feeling a bit better too xx

Ailsa i too sit on yhe bench and look at videos of Gordon , its hard to believe that there still not here isn't it when you see them on video . xx

Patricia i hope your managing to get through these difficult days (((((((hugs ))))))))).

Lesley well done on putting the tree up , like you we also made a big thing about putting the tree up . music , baileys and set too and tottaly make a mess of it , but we used to have such a laugh . I'll admit i've chickened out if fetching the tree and decorations in from the shed , i've bought a new small on and bought everthing new to put on it , i will try and do it this week , the sooner its done the sooner its out the way .xx

Well this time last year we we're in gran canaria , we hadn't been on holiday last year as we'd lost my mum , dad had his major op (and heartattack ) and Gordon was having chemo , but in sept they stopped the chemo (as it wasn't working) they had put him on a new trial and we decided we would book a week away whilst we could . We had a lovely week and as it turns out now it was our last holiday , thank goodness we went and didn't put it of for a couple of months . We never for a min thought it would be our last holiday , we'd planed to go every year before christmas ..

Hi to everybody else , hope i haven't depressed any one xxxxx

Take care Lynne xxxxxxxxxx

hi hope everyone who lost anyone your love can cope up with this situation...never let the feeling manipulating you and it will cause severe damage to yourself....one thing you should do..pray for them....

Did anyone just see  the BBC news? Pictures of a mass ascent of sky lanterns in indonesia (i think ).

Anything they can do.........................

It looked stunning.

sue x

hopefully it will be repeated later Sue , i'll try and watch it if i can keep my eyes open . Never going out on 2 nights running , i cant do it lol xxxxxxx

No stamina, you young'uns, that's your problem!!!!!

You might catch it on i player - it was the last short article on tea time bbc news.

xx

I've put the bbc 24/7 news on now but i player probably a better idea . Yes no stamina , i'll agree with that one lol xx

Morning girls - hope you're all OK - I have read back  but my head's like a sieve just now and retention of information is just not possible!!!!  So I'm sending you good wishes for today and lots of (((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))) to help you through this next few weeks....................xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

dear lynne

Have found footage of lanterns!

bbciplayer - yesterday's tv bbc1 - news - click on 'one more' - footage right at the end - very short - move bar on bottom to 17.28 and there you have it!

Or not, as the case may be!

Sue xx