My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

feeling better all of a sudden!!! wouldn't trust you with that syringe! lol

Afternoon xx

No shoe buying today!! No xmas shopping either!! Been to the gym as Natalie had an appointment with trainer to get a programme. Did my work out but was hard this morning!! Maybe down to the couple of glasses of wine last night lol! The instructor is the same one I have and he asked Nat if she was proud of me and called me `Mum of the Year!` bless xx

Just been to put flowers in Paul`s vase,it was a struggle to fit them. Paul`s mum had obviously only just filled it. Nat wasn`t very impressed!! Had to take a few out and squeeze my roses in.Paul would be laughing at me taking flowers out!!!

Brought the rest of my bunch home to put in a vase here! Oh well, never mind

Lesley glad you got over last night. I remember being in a large group and feeling very lonely. It does get easier xxx

Right need to get down to cleaning and I have bought ingredients to make a banana cake. Domestic goddess lol!!

Speak later

Helen xxx

helen, you are putting me to shame - what is it with the cleaning and cooking business?????

As regards the flowers, I always keep some in a vase next to alan's picture at home - i don't do the 'shrine' thing, as he would come back and haunt me if I ever thought about it as he always said life is for the living, and 'once i've gone, put me in an old box and throw me off the cliff!'   (Cheaper, perhaps, if not entirely legal!).

he has plants at his special place, and the solar lantern which starts to glow as it gets dark.

go buy some shoes, girl - cakes can wait!

sue x

even better!!

Hi All

Lesley well done for sticking it our so long last night - what a thoughtless git though!

Sue, sorry to hear you are still under the weather from your bug, it knocked me flat for a couple of days but I am feeling much better now. Hope you are soon up to doing the weekly shop - of not, there's always tesco online!

Helen I agree with Sue - you are putting me to shame with your domestic godess routine! Less cooking more shopping I say!

Judi, you are as daft with your dogs as I am with mine. I remember cooking chicken and rice for ours when they were ill then sending Miles out for a takeaway for us!

Patricia, Gayle, Lynne and everyone else... too much catching up for my little brain I'm afraid - but hope you are all doing ok.

Am off to my SIL's for tea in a little while, they have just come back from Egypt so haven't seen them for a couple of weeks - have missed her, she is the only one who bothers with us anymore! How quickly the 'concerned calls' dry up...  Hopefully we won't be joined by my MIL too - my tongue is getting too sore from constant biting...

Manda xx

dear manda

Never tried tesco online - is it easy?  How soon do they deliver?

Hi Sue

Have only tried them a few of times, and we have used Sainsbury's online too... you can view and  choose an available delivery time before you start beofre you start to fill your trolley, so it depends on when is available... I normally end up with next day, but you can book in advance too. They have always been bang on time and everything well packed and fresh. Well worth the delivery charge!

xx

Thanks, manda, am going to do it right now!!!

Sue xx

Sue online shopping is the future!!

Used it for weeks after Paul died and I couldn`t face the supermarket!1

Cake not made yet!! Too busy changing the tunes while I clean lol!!

Amanda enjoy your tea, laughing at your sore tongue, sorry!! Nice use of words!!

Helen xxx

Love the pics as usual Sue xxx