My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Have a lovely evening Helen.  I think that maybe Stu's extra 10 years on Liam helps him a little bit but don't really know for sure.

I love Pimms!  I am having a TV catch up evening tonight as I have been so busy and am so tired.  I have been recording Flashforward but missed the first 2 episodes so I am watching them on the PC tonight.  Going to bed early so I am fresh for loads of painting tomorrow.  Also having my hair done in the morning.

Did a 'wear it pink' day at work today and raised £500.00 for breast cancer research - not bad eh?  Ailsa xx

Wow that`s great Ailsa, well done you xxxx

Evening girls - Ailsa £500?  WELL DONE!!!!  Hope you're having a well earned rest now before tackling any more painting??  Helen - enjoy your evening with your friends.............Hope you've got a really big jug for that Pimms??  I think we're having an 'at home' weekend..........So I'll be out in the garden if it's sunny or cardmaking if it's not!!!!  I think Alan will just be sitting and resting!!  Hope you all have nice things planned for this weekend??  Love and ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))) Dot xxxxxxx

Evening all . Well done Ailsa , on your pink day , i think there has been a lot of collections going round work today too , saw lots of pink witches floating around , sure we will hear how muxh they have made soon .

Helen , have a good night and i hope Liam is feeling better soon . It must be really hard to cope with the kids aswell , i know when Gordons daughters phone me up we always end up in tears and i come off the phone quite drained cos i dont know how to help them , in the end i've just got to think that its only talking and time that will help , so i hope Liam manages to open up to you some more  . It must be really hard to lose a dad at his age especially when they we're so close .

Dotte enjoy your "at home " you deserve it , both of you .

. Well the evening seemed to be looking very bleak , i'd finished work , been to the cemmy and visited dad , cleaned the car out , swept some leaves up and it was only 5 oclock and i felt quite depressed , then my eldest son , wife and 2 grand kiddies called and said they we're going to a local park to watch some entertainment and did i want to go with them , Did i ? i was ready in 2 mins . So we've watched a light show , fire works , listened to ghost stories and the kiddies had a few rides on the fair ground too , so its not such a bad night . Bless the kids xx

 I hope Gayle has had a good day and is settled in her new home now , sure the boys are excited .

Fiona i hope your cat is continuing to improve .. 

I'm now going to cut and chop a skirt to wear for tommorow ,, wish me luck lol ..

Hi to everybody else , hope your all ok xxxxxxxxxxxxx

I'll agree with that Dot - enjoy your 'at home' time with Alan.  Sounds like you have had a lovely time this evening Lynne.  Good luck with the skirt.  I am tired and going off to bed now so that I can be up bright and early tomorrow morning.  I might have the energy to get up in the loft and get some of my halloween stuff down ready for tomorrow evening.  I am not going anywhere but I like to make an effort for the trick or treaters!  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xx

night night Ailsa xxxxxx

Hi all

We had two beautiful sunny days, they were super - but tonight I think Noah will be building an ark if this goes on much more. 

End of a bad week, but we all  knew that would be the case.  I feel tired (exhausted!) but much better than a few days ago.  So onwards and upwards.  I know what you mean about sons, Boy (as I keep saying!) is fantastic, but I know the first few months were very hard.  He was at uni in Glasgow but I was very lucky in that many old school friends are also there and they watched over him.  Their mums kept me informed of how he was REALLY doing (cos he always tried to tell me he was fine) He lost a quite a bit of weight etc but one night really opened up to one of his female friends and seems to have been much more able to cope since then.  I hope that your boys find their 'someone' to talk to.  I guess a lot of the time they worry about us, so think they need to be strong.  Ailsa, thank you for saying that you love Boy too!! He does actually have a big enough heart for me to let some go your way!

Gayle - thinking of you and hope that the move goes smoothly ....... so that we can all come and stay in that amazing new home!  Helen - I also tried to get the M&S deal and was thwarted!  Lynne, I really hope you get some satisfaction with the insurers, and quickly.

I will admit now that I will be going down the Bah Humbug route tomorrow night and will be disconnecting the door bell - you can all boo and hiss now - but my two dogs can't cope with the doorbell going every two minutes for three or four hours. They get very distressed, and with the fireworks about to start any day now they will have enough to deal with over the coming weeks.

Love to everyone else, and Lynne ... one more thing .... I am a bit concerned that you talked of cutting and chopping of the skirt .... but there was no mention of sewing or stitching - not too short now!!!

Love to all   Judi xxx

Ha Ha very funny Judi , i have chopped and cut and sewed , i'll admit it may be a little shorter than i intended , but i'll wear tights and keep my didnity (maybe) I am dressing as a witch by the way , out with the girls from work so i am looking forward to it .. I think the insurers are ready to pay up (i think ) they said they sent me a letter out wed but i haven't had it yet so untill i see it in black and white i'm still not convinced . The've still got to sort out the accident and sickness insurance and i really cant work out why they are dragging there heals on that one , they paid up last year whilst Gordon was having his chemo . Oh well it will probably al work out in the end .

I dont blame you for unplugging the bell if it upsets the dogs , i usually have a few sweets ready as i usually get a few at the door . I dont mind if their little kiddies who dress up properly and not teens who just wear the masks (cant think of the name ) oh could it be halloween mask , i hate them . Anyway hope fully i'll not get to many i've got myself to get ready too

 Take care Lynne xxxxxxxx

Morning!!

I`ve got my sweeties ready for the trick and treaters. I`m not doing anything, lazy day today I think.

Lynne have fun tonight, don`t forget the photos!!

Ailsa hope you get your jobs done today.

Judi, boy sounds like he`s done well too, like you, I hope Liam manages as well. He said the other night it isn`t very often the time or place to talk to his mates, I know one or two of them would be there to listen but he doesn`t feel he can sometimes. He`ll just have to put up with talking to me....lucky boy!!!

Dot and Alan, enjoy your weekend, you deserve a rest.

Gayle will have had her 1st night in her new home, hope they all slept well.

What`s everyone else doing this weekend?

Helen xx

Hi Helen and all , yes i've got my sweeties ready , i think there will be a lot out tonight whilst the weather is ok , Did you have a good night last night ? . I,ve been shopping wih my daughter this morning , she's got these sat shopping trips sussed out now , she's already got the next 2 weeks planned lol. OH well it gets me out and hey ho if i see another hand bag its not my fault , i really love bags , not bothered about shoes , just bags . I,ve been to the cemmy aswell (as i'm sure you know after my post on f/b) who needs wi fi when you have a mobile . lol. And now i'm chilling before tonight , not sure about it really . We are going into town , it will be very busy and i think i'm passed it , but i can always come home if i'm not happy , but i think once the larger kicks in i might be ok .. Have you any plans ?

Take care

Lynne xxxx