My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Evening girls - how is everyone tonight??

Gayle - good luck with your move tomorrow.  Hope you're soon unpacked and settled in.......are there young people of your sons ages close by????  They'll soon make friends and that may open doors for you too..........

Ailsa - thinking pink??  Hope people are very very generous tomorrow and fill your bucket with lots of dosh!!!  Visiting Brodsworth??  That's almost on my doorstep!!!  Well only a few miles away and a place we visit often........it's lovely on Sunday afternoons in summer with the band concerts in the garden.  I was a volunteer gardener there for a short while - just before Alan became ill............Hard work but worth it!!!! 

Lynne - I do hope that your claim is sorted soon.......and that you can rest more instead of being so stressed.  Don't these people realise just how thoughtless and hurtful they can be???  What happened to good customer care??? 

Fiona - hope your cat is OK?

Helen and anyone else I've missed - sorry brain's gone into meltdown again...............but Love and (((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))) to comfort you all  Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thanks Dottee , i'm ok hun , just another mountain to climb but i'm getting good at it now and i get such tremendious support on here , i'll be fine xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi everyone - best laid plans as they say.  I opened the door to my son after all I said.  I had been missing him today so it was nice to see him but nothing has been done again and now I have to jump in the shower and then get up at 5:30am.  This sitting room is destined to never be finished.

Dot - if you had anything to do with Brodsworth Hall's lovely gardens you did a grand job.  They were beautiful last night and all the fountains and lights looked really good.  My Mum & Dad only love about 15 mins away and I live another 10.

Lynne I am glad to hear that it sounds like the insurance is finally sorted out even if you do need to lodge a complaint now.  I have laid all the paperwork out tonight so that I can ring my bank tomorrow about one of Chris's accounts.  They have upset me twice already but I can't put it off any longer.  It had best not keep me away from my painting though because if they do I will begin to believe it really is never going to get finished.

Right I had better get off for that shower.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xx

 Hi Everyone,

Hope you are all ok tonight, well i got Scooby back at lunchtime today. He does look a bit better but still not right but vet decided to give him a jag that will last a fortnight and see how he gets on so at least he has had something to eat today and been out a few times. I missed him so much last night, he is 14yrs but do hope he goes on for awhile yet. I have been busy sewing on buttons to cardi s i have been knitting so it's took me all night. Kim been out for a meal tonight with teachers etc from school so she is just away home shattered. One of her friends had a baby girl today three weeks early. Well i better get off to bed as working in the morning Luv to All  Fiona xxxxxxxxxxxx 

    Dear Gayle

Hope that you and the boys will be very happy in your new home.

sue x

Morning everyone

Fed up this morning. Last night I had a very cross and sad son (17), we had a chat in the end and lots of tears but they`re are no answer are there? The one thing that would make all this better can`t be possible, I wish I had a magic wand!! It is nearly 6 months now since Paul died but everyone is still hurting so much. How do I help him with all this, I muddle through from day to day, always there for him and my daughter but is that enough? Still lots get left unsaid. I wish I could take the hurt away but I can`t xxx Sorry for the moan guys, just need to share

Helen xxx

Hi Helen,

You are not moaning i know what it is like because Darren is the same he doesn't say much but you can see he is angry inside. Kim opens up but Darren keeps it all in. Like you i wish i could make it better for them but as you say nothing we can do but be there for them. It happened so quick in the end there was a lot we wanted to say as well.Hope you are ok today and the tears dry up, o i have started now why why why  Fiona xxxx

Hi Fiona

Nat talks a lot too so I am glad he let it out ;last night but also feel so helpless.I`m having a few tears with you too xx

Helen xx

Hello Helen & Fiona.  I am so sorry you are both feeling sad.  I worry so much as well about what is the right thing to do to help the kids through this.  Funnily enough last night Stu was saying how much he missed Chris now he is enjoying his new job.  He wants to tell Chris all about it and also he has time because of his shifts when he could be spending time with Chris.  Stu can see that they would have time when Stu is on lates, to go and play some golf.  He feels very cheated.  He is probably older than both your sons - he is older than yours Helen for sure.  Lots of love and hugs to you both and to your sons (((xxx)))

I am hopeful of having made a breakthrough with my bank at last regarding Chris's credit card.  I rang after work today and stayed really calm.  I was transferred a couple of times but eventually spoke to a lady who had also lost her husband so she completely understood.  Either she or her manager are going to ring me back so fingers crossed that she is as nice as she sounded.  Hope everyone has a good evening.  Ailsaxx

Hi Ailsa

Sounds promising with the bank, fingers crossed. Think we`re all bit brighter tonight, Liam is going to an 18th tonight and I`m having friends round for something to eat and a few drinks. I`ve cheated and bought Tesco`s finest meals (was going to get M & S meal deal but they only do it every other weekend at the mo!) I`m doing main and friend bringing pud!! I`m also going to make a jug of Pimms!!

I think that`s what had got to Liam the other day, he had been to the match last Sunday against Man U and he said it was the best game for ages and was sad that Paul wasn`t there to share it. Happy times turn into sad times don`t they? Will try and keep talking every now and then and see if he will open up a bit more. Good that Stu talks to you xx

Have a nice night everyone

Helen xxx