My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Morning everyone

Fiona fingers crossed your cat is ok today. My dog is such company, they are a worry xx

Lynne hope your day is better today, and everyone else has a good day. Patricia hope you`re ok too xx

I`m up early waiting for man to come and fit my floor, quite excited!! Doesn`t take much lol!! I was in bed early last night too, hard work this half term holidays!!

Speak later

Helen xxx

Hi everyone,

Everyone seems to have a bit of a rollercoaster week.  Sorry to hear about your daughters friends Esme - thank god I am not a teenager any more!  Lynne, you can rant all you like to us.  I think we would go mad if we didn't let it out.  Helen, hope you are enjoying your holiday although it is nearly over - hope the floor is nice when done.  Fiona, thinking of you today and let us know how your cat gets on.  Animals are great companions.  We have a dog left now that was Wully's so if anything was to happen to her I would be heartbroken as she was very close to Wully although at the end she drove him mad with her snoring.  She is really loud and his hearing was really sensitive with the steriods so he was constantly chucking her out the living room lol!  My cat never came back (its okay to ask Lynne :-)).  I am sure he is fine and off hunting down in the big park that he was heading for. Although he is probably lying in front of someones fire getting spoiled lol!    Alisa, hope the decorating is coming along nicely.  Not long now till you are finished.  Judi, huge hugs - your post made me cry at the lovely thoughts of you and Ed.  You have had a very tough week and dealt with it amazingly.  Your "boy" sounds great though too lol.

Well its my last day and I am feeling very emotional.  Just dropped the boys off at school and nursery for their last days and said goodbye to my friends at the school.  Ewan's teachers at nursery are very upset so my Dad is going to pick him up for me tonight as they will probably all be crying and I couldn't face it.

Very excited about the house - thanks for the nice comments.  The house is beautiful and it was lovely seeing it yesterday although it is not finished grrrr!!!!  I was mad when I was there as the carpets are still not down in the bedrooms and there is scaffolding inside still for fitting lights.  I phoned the landlord and he is lovely though.  My mum was laughing as she thinks he just charmed me on the phone and I came off saying oh he is lovely what a nice man.  She said were you not going to shout at him??  Anyway, he has promised he will get it all sorted today and it will be all ready for Friday and he is going to meet me there when we arrive with the removal lorry to make sure everything is okay.  The boys will love it as there is loads of space inside and out for them to play.  I also went to the local doctors to register (we used to live in this village till 3 years ago) and they were all out hugging me and stuff which was nice as Wully lived there when first diagnosed so they about him.  He wanted to move to here to be near his family when he was ill (why I don't know as they were absolutely useless!).  It was nice as the last time I went to the GP here after Wully died no-one even acknowledged a thing even though I was down there all the time and on the phone all the time looking for prescriptions!

Anyway, if I don't get a chance to post again today take care everybody and look after yourselves.  I will probably be offline for a few days and will catch up with you all soon.

Gayle xx

Good luck Gayle. Sure there`ll be more tears as the day goes on, go with the flow!! But exciting too eh? Hope it is all finished for you tomorrow. Look forward to your news when you get back on line

Helen xxx

Afternoon everyone

I`ve just been sorting Paul`s wardrobe out :(. I keep thinking he would be telling me to get rid....I don`t need it!! Well I`ve filled a bin bag for the charity shop, and got a pile on my chair that I`m not sure what to do with?? All his footie shirts and t shirts he`s bought from concerts. Also his cycling, motor bike clothes, can`t bring myself to get rid of them yet. Oh well I`ve made a start!!

Helen xxx

Hello everyone.  Did your floor get laid Helen?  It sounds like you are being very industrious with your half term break.  You have done really well sorting at least one bag out for charity and I don't blame you for not being able to get rid of any more of paul's clothes.  It is the special ones that Chris picked himself that I find impossible to get rid of.  I am glad you enjoyed your night out on Tuesday.

Sorry you are feeling low Lynne.  It sounded like the cemmy visit yesterday was lovely.  I was very envious of the lovely weather.  I couldn't get out in it because of work.  Last night I visited an enchanted garden at brodsworth hall with my mum & dad and we were able to walk round in the very mild night and then drink coffee outside at 8:30pm.  Who would ever have thought that could happen at the end of October!?

Esme I am glad Samantha is home safe and sound and had a good time after all.  I am sure she will sort out which of her friends mean most to her and are genuine.  Good luck with the fridge door tomorrow.

I am still up to my eyeballs in upheavel!  I have not had any time to do anymore decorating this week as I had visitors all weekend and then I have something on every evening this week so far.  I am refusing to answer the door tonight!  I need to get a couple of things done so that I can paint tomorrow as I have an earlier finish on Fridays.  We are joining in with the 'wear it pink' day for breast cancer research tomorrow so I have decorated a bucket to try to get people to throw their change into.  I need to be in work at 6:30am to catch the first shift but I am sure it will be worth it if we raise plenty of money.  I have donated to the raffle and made some buns to sell so far.  Then it is on with painting all weekend - I really want to make a dent in that job this coming week.

Gayle your new house looks absolutley great on FB.  I am sure you will be happy in it with the boys.

Fiona - how is your cat?  Well I hope you are all enjoying the half term break for those who have it.  Is anyone doing anything more interesting than painting this weekend?  Like that would be hard to top!!!  Ailsa xx

Evening everyone First of all good luck to Gayle , hope it all goes smoothly tommorow , i'm sure it will , Wully will be with you , sorry your cat didn't come back and your right it probably is in front of someones fire . The cat that met me yesterday morning was waiting when i got in tonight so he got the promised tuna , he loved it ...

Helen how brave of you , i haven't even opened the wardrobe yet apart form get a t shirt out to sleep in , if you can do it i will in a few weeks , well maybe .. Halifax didn't call me back so i phoned them and i got the most obnoxios man ever , i said i'd been waiting for a call from them and i would like to know what is happening , so he said well which claim is it or asking about , grrr , i said both of them . As i've explained to them at least 12 times there is 2 claims going through 1 for life insurance and the other is accident and sickness which has been in since march . He said the A/S one was closed and then he said the last time you spoke to anybody about this claim was June WHAT i've told them everytime and a girl cslled Marie was supossed to be sorting it out (i'm still waiting for her to get back to me from the 13and 14th oct) he said oh yeah she's still looking into it . I was ready for slapping him , he then said a letter had gone out to me yesterday (typical now there is a postal strike ) so i asked him to read the letter out which he did , but he read it so fast i'd got no idea what he'd said . So i said "look i'm stressed , upset and fed up with all this and i'm not taking it in at all so please explain what you have just read out " so with a big sigh and i mean big he explained that they have accepted my life claim and i just have to sign the form and send it back , why could he have not have just said that . His attitude was crap and he is now added on to my letter of complaint . At least i know that the life insurance will go through and i should be pleased (and i am ) but its been so stressfull , at least the mortgage should be paid off in a few weeks but i'd rather have my husband .

On a brighter note and those on F/B will know that me and sis have got tickets for Torvil and deans dancing on ice next april . We went last year,  Gordon bought the tickets and he paid for us to sit rink side so that has spoiled us so we've booked front row seats and cant wait . I dont think they go on general sale till monday bug cos we'd booked last year we got a email to say we'd got priority booking and could book today yippee .

Thank you for all your good wishes today i have had a better day and i hope everybody else has ..

Lynne xxxxxx

Hi Ailsa, hope you get done tonight what you need to!! Good luck with tomorrow, sure you`ll raise lots.

Lynne at least you`ve been told it`s all going to happen, it will be a relief to get the mortgage paid. Not a consolation I know!! xxx

You don`t even know who will be in the show yet but then it doesn`t really matter does it, I love it too!!

Fiona any news on your cat?

The floor looks great, just need my washing machine and dishwasher connecting back now. Missed them both!! Quiet here again tonight, not used to daughter going out so much but it is half term!! Poured myself a cheeky glass of Rose!! Early I know but hey!!

I`ve got friends coming round tomorrow night, I`m doing the main course and friend is bringing the pud!! Cheaper than going out and usually a better night! Not much else planned here. What`s everyone else up to?

Helen xxx

Hi Helen , No i dont care who is in the show , i got a kiss of Matt (cant remember who he danced with ) last year . Glad you got most things done today , yes it is good that i can pay the morgage off it will help a lot . By the way have you ladies claimed any tax pack off your husbands wages , my daughter put a claim in for me and i got a refund back last week . Thank goodness for her cos no one has told me i would be able to claim some tax back .What a good idea to do that for a meal Helen ,  an the cheeky rose sounds fine , you are on your Holls lol .

 Ailsa you have been busy dont you go over doing it now . Fiona hope the cat is ok hun xxxxxxxxxx

Hi again

Paul was self employed but was on incapacity for 12 months before he died. I did ring the tax to make sure everything was clear with his business etc. No refund!!

Have a nice evening, don`t think there`s much on the tv!!

It was worth a try Helen , every little helps . No nothing on the telly look like playing with lappy all night lol xxxxx