My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

hi scared lady

i hope you dont mind me popping in i am so sorry  to hear about what happened to you on yours hols  glad no one was hurt there are some low  life people   my  in laws go about 3 times year there.I  hope it not put you off going back it a shame when you cant where what you want to

Take care love janice xxx

Morning All,

Well i also had a good sleep but i had to take a tablet to help me sleep, i had a horrible day yesterday and cried most of the day and of course i had to be working, up to now i feel i have been so strong at work but yesterday i could not care i just wanted Derek back and i also felt angry at being left on my own (not with Derek) just  a horrible day. So i went to my sisters for tea and had company for the night i don't think i could have been on my own, and i do feel i don't want to put everything onto Kim and Darren. I am at the stage where i am saying why why why me. But today is another day and i have had a good sleep and ready to face another day just going to pop to Kim's for a coffee and then and come back and do some work. Who's rabbling on now sorry. Hope everyone else has a good day, the sun is shining here just now so got some washing out.  Hi Judi did you say you come from Aberdeen i use to come to my granny and granda's for my holidays when i was a wee girl (a long time ago) we came to Banchory do you know where that is? Well off for my coffee and sorry again to rable on. Speak later.

Take Care

Fiona xxxxxxxx

Morning guys.

Yes Fiona I know Banchory - it's very pretty and where you go on an Sunday for a run in the car and a 'fancy piece' (that is a cake!) when there is nothing else to do.  

Helen, if you keep on at that rate London 2012 will be calling you.  Good on you girl, as they say.  And although I haven't actually done it yet, because of you I have decided to find out what classes are on in the evening at the nearest school.  I have been told they do a very good jazzercise (for beginners I hope) class.  I do know that if it is anywhere too far away I will make excuses not to go, but this is just round the corner - so fingers crossed.   Patricia, if I do make it that far I will let you know how ghastly or not it is.  Maybe you and I could come up with a sofaerobics DVD between us instead- but NO lycra ok! lol.

Lynne I just know that the lady you will met will be so glad you were there yesterday.  You will have been such a good listener for her, and as you say - so much for her to go through. 

Gayle, glad you raised money from your psychic night.  I have swithered about going to something like that but am a bit worried that I would might expect too much and then be left wanting.

Hi to everyone else.  Dot if you have any other calorie hiding ideas for my nightcap - pass them on.   I did have an old favourite that Ed used to make for me - Although I found the taste too strong I have always loved the smell of brandy and even as a child used to very occassionally be given a 'snifter' (two drops in a glass) just to smell.  My darling used to make me a holiday nightcap of Brandy and Baileys mixed on ice - he used to inform me, with a very serious face, that it wasn't easy to get just right as it can curdle .... yuckkk..    Seems easy to drink at the time, but I'd advise no more than two as they can be lethal!  Happy memories.

Judi xxx

Good evening everyone.  How is everyone this evening?

My night out was fun.  We had a lovely thai meal and a few drinks before and after.  I stayed out until almost 2am!  I didn't overdo it so no hangover this morning.  I drove back home at about midday and carried on with my sitting room after lunch.  The room is ready for Stu to plaster now.  He doesn't have another day off until a week on Wednesday so that is enough time for me to get the new coving ready.  I missed x factor so I will have to do a mid-week catch up.

Well done with the psychic night Gayle.  Sounds like you raised quite a bit for the playgroup.

Lynne I am sure the lady you met at the cemetery is so glad it was you she got talking to.

Good evening Janice - it is nice to hear from you.

I'm glad you had a good sleep Fiona and I hope you are feeling a bit better today after you had such a bad day the other day.

How was your shift Patricia?  Were you able to get some sleep?

I love the sound of the sofaerobics Judi but won't the brandy & Bailey's get spilled?  Could be even worse when you take up the jazzzercise.

Sounds like you have done a great job at the gym, on your fitness Helen.  I hope you enjoyed the meal with your in-laws.

I am tired again tonight after only getting 5 hours sleep last night.  Might need to do some ironing and then got off for another early night.  take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Evening all Dottee very funny lol , i love them all being here and always feel a little flat when they go but its my little grandsons birthday (3) tommorow so i'll see them all again when i've finished work . Ailsa 2 am !! really young lady tut , i'm so glad you enjoyed it , i bet none of us thought that was possible a few months ago , but like Fiona i seem to be going through a angry stage , and still ask why why why us , its not fair , but then i think of the poor woman in the cemetery Judi and think there is always someone else going through heart ache too , i'm glad i got talking to her and i hope i helped her in some way .. Janicecourse you can pop in , we love new faces and i'm so sorry for what you are going through too . I wont be put off going to benidorm but wont stay in the same hotel , will stay more central and be more safety consious next time .. Hope you had a good lunch Helen , you really do have super in laws , but you deserve them , so glad for you . How is everyone else this evening , hurry up X factor ..

Lynne xxxxxx

Evening all

Good luck with the class Judi, Jazzercise sounds fun!!!

Ailsa glad you had a good night xx

Lynne like already said the lady at the cemetery must have appreciated the chat too.

I had a lovely meal and went back to in laws house for some tea but son had a `moany` stage while we were there. He just wants to be earning money and impatient!! Had to swallow tears a few times thinking Paul should have been there with us! Held it in but came home and had a few tears!!

Sunday night again and back to work in the morning, nearly half term!

Love to everyone else too

Helen xxx

Hi, everyone

sounds as though we've all been busy this weekend one way or another. Lynne, how fortuitous that you got chatting to that lady at the cemetery; what we're going through is bad enough, but how does she cope with what happened to her daughter?  I just know, lynne, that talking to you and sharing her experiences would have been a form of therapeutic relief for her; it must be so hard to talk about it.

i keep feeling very inadequate with all this talk of gyms and exercise; Judi, i'm with you all the way, girlie, with the sofaerobics - sounds like just my cup of tea.

well, have emptied daughter's room this weekend ready for decorator tomorrow; furniture moved, carpets up, dump visited and room cleaned. unfortuantely, one job invariably begets another, so had to get rid of furniture from spare bedroom so that Alice's old wardrobe and chest of drawers could go in there, as she's having new furniture courtesy of IkEA, and currently flatpacked in the garage. taalk about shattered!  still, managed to get to the cemmy today .

hope you all have a good week

sue x

ummmmmmm Sue - your pic hasn't shown on here!!!! Too big it says!!!!  Hope you've got your feet up now????  I'm exhausted and that's just reading what you've been doing!!!! xxx

Hope you do too!!!!!  Love butterflies.......I always try to put one on my cards............yes even the boys ones!!!!!