My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Ha ha Patricia, I can just picture a scene from Little Britains`s fat fighters!!

Right I`m off now, see you later xxxx

Scales, scales ... did you say scales Patricia.  Oh no, I don't have any of those things in my house!  Well, just watched X factor and was loving it and then a friend, a very good friend who has been  marvellous over the last couple of years, phoned ....... AND STAYED ON THE PHONE FOR 47 MINUTES!!!!!    Now all I have to do is decide whether to watch the rerun at 1.20am or later in the week!  How sad am I.

Just off to pour myself a G&T.  I don't think there can be any calories in it because it's clear - so there is no where for them to hide - is there. 

Judi x

Hi Judi - I've found using an eye-dropper for the 't' doesn't dilute the 'g' too much and reduces calorie intake!!!!!

Hi, I`ve watched x factor and now having a few tears with Cilla!!! xx

Dot - thank you for that, and in the interests of science I am about to put your theory into practice! Will let you know of results, lol.   Damn, forgot Cilla was on. 

Judi x

Hi  Ladies,

Just back as I was out a psychic night.  It was okay and they did say a few things about Wully that made sense.  She said that I am bottling up too much and that it is going to take me a long time before I can move on (about 5 years!).  It was quite interesting and we made loads of money for the playgroup so that is the main thing.

I got some packing done today and will get stuck into it tomorrow.  Just polished off a bag of chips and cup of tea and watching the X-Factor before I go to bed.

Hope your day have been okay.

Gayle x

Whoops forgot to say welcome back Lynne - we have missed you and sorry to hear about the mugging x

Morning all , Sorry i didn't get on here yesterday the day just ran away and i'd woken up feeling so flat but the day turned out ok . I'd visited the kids and dad and thenyes Judi i intended spending an hour on my bench , the sun was out and it was lovely up there . I got talking(not like me at all )  to a lovely lady , her daughter had been murderd just a few days after i lost Gordon , i'd read about it in the local paper so i knew she was burried a little way from Gordon . Her grave is really really lovely and i commented on it , she returned the compliment and we sat talking for about 2 hours . Her daughters husband is on remand charged with her murder (not sure how he killed her ) so she has a lot to deal with . She has 2 grandsons (17 and 24 ) so she has to deal with them too , poor thing . The court case is in Jan , not sure if it will make the nationals but could do . When i left her she gave me the biggest hug and i really felt her warmth . I think we'll be grave buddies forever now ..

I then watched the England match with my daughter at the pub , i then came home and fell asleep through X factor , thats why i'm so early this morning lol .

Fiona , i hope the last 3 weeks goes really quickly for Kim , the baby really will give you the greatest pleasure , i dont know what i'd do without my little ones bless . Ailsa that must have been awful for you and i can understand you being angry , thats how we felt too , we still talk about it all the time tying to make sense of how it happened , where did he come from ? why wern't we more aware ,? but i know if we had seen him my sister would have fought for her bag and she would have been hurt so maybe it is better that we didn't see it coming , i know i will never walk anywhere at night again abroad , i will also just take trousers with pockets in and not use a bag , all my jewellery will stay at home , when i think about what i could have lost , i'd got a gold locket on with Gordons picture and i lock of his hair in , i was also wearing a braclet he bought me for our first and only anniversary worth about 250 pounds , i realise now i was stupid to even take them , but we live and learn .

Helen i,ve always wanted to do salsa and i know they do classes local so thatmight be my next project , anything to get me out of the house . Hope your assesment goes well at the gym .. Patricia i hope you've amnsged to get a bit more sleep by now , and i feel the same about this thread i dont know how i would have got through this without you all and look what its done for Kev , i'm sure he must have met Janiejane on here bless i hope they are really well and having a good time together ..

Dottee i'm sure your Alan is a really lovely man and i cant wait to meet you both , i've hd some more details by e mail about the walk but not had a good look at it yet , thats my next job ..

Gayle glad you enjoyed your physic night , i love them and i maybe going this tues depending on if i finish work on time . Hoe the packing is going well , are the boys excited about the planned move ?

Hope i've not forgoten anybody . Are you alright Sue ? i love your comments on F/B lol

Hi to Kaz and Esme , Quill and anybody else you posts . whats everybody's plans for today ? I've got all the kids for lunch .

Lynne xxxxxxxx

Morning Lynne - that's a bit geedy - having all the kids for lunch!!!  I love 'em - but couldn't eat a whole one!!!!  Seriously have a lovely day with your family - I hope the weather stays good for you!!!!!  Love and ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))) to all here  Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Ha ha Dot!!!

Well I didn`t get measured at the gym yesterday..that`s next week! He had me stretching and all sorts!! Scored high though! Also ran for 5 minutes, getting fitter!! 1st time I could only walk on the treadmill, then jog now run!!

Lynne glad your day got better yesterday. I have found this weekend a bit easier, done jobs but aso chilled. Mother and Father in law are taking me and the kids out for lunch today so looking forward to that then going back to their house. There`s a few bits at their`s that I want to look at to sell on e bay. We used to have a fireplace/gas fire shop which we took over when Paul`s Dad retired but when Paul was1st diagnosed our priorities changed and the shop was not one of them. There are a few bits we still have so really need to get them sold. Will hopefully make a start this afternoon.

Good luck with your walk Dot and Lynne, we want some photos please xx

Hope everyone else has had an ok weekend, hope Ailsa enjoyed her night out last night

Helen xxx