My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa
Hi Judi , i dont think any of us enjoy the weekends now , i used to love them and think of ways to extent them now i cant wait for them to be over , most weekends i try and have something planned in the day bit i hate sat nights , i went out last sat for the first time i was so excited and i did have a good time .
Well i've got my little water feature done , i'm looking after little Maddie at the moment but i will get some pics later and post on face book (unless i can get them on here now ) Its nothing spectacular , like Kazs just a little corner but i have enjoyed doing it . Have to think of a nother project when i'm back off my holls , moving hose keeps going through my head at the moment .But need to think that one through a bit more . Hope everybody enjoying there day , the sun is in and out here and i need it out to make my well work .. Helen dont spend up ..
Lynne
Ps Judi i dont know what Sue is trying to say about me , i think they all think i'm this crazy woman who goes sleeping in cemeteries , buys lots of toy dogs and goes arroung knocking hand dryers off walls , well its all TRUE sorry lol xx
Hi, lynne!
Can't wait to see your photos. Apparently it's faily easy to post them on here from fb, and I've done it once. Alternatively, you can store unlimited amount of photos on Truprint on line, and copy them from there.
sue x
Quill, yu will become addicted to the chat room if you are not very very careful lol
Lynne, well done on the water feature but be careful you don't fall in lol
Helen good luck car hunting
Judi, I am now 29 weeks in and still finding it difficult to motivate myself. (maybe I am just plain lazy)
Sue, don't think I will ever get pictures uploaded apart from my profile pic lol
See you all later. Got to tidy the mess i just made whilst decorating grrrrrr.............
love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x
Hi Patricia,
I think I was a bit addicted to it last night especially as i can never sleep that well at night. It was good chatting on there, have you been on there as well?
Love Quill xxxx
Hi Everyone,
Well got back on to site, how's everyone today. I have been working today but not that busy as we have had it wet this afternoon, i am going to a friends tonight she has asked me up for ages and i never seem to get round. How are you all finding the site now think it will take me a while to get use to it. Lynne hope you get your water feature up and running will look forward to see it once you get your photos posted. Hi Judi i know what you mean about the weekends i dread them as well, i had a cry this morning before work then Kim came in and she started it's so hard. Well i better go and get my tea (ready meal again) speak soon.
Take Care Fiona xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Evening all , well didn't get the photos done by the time the kids had gone its gone to dark , I,m pleased with the water feature but no chance of me falling in it Trisha its only tiny lol . The grandkiddies loved it , think thats why they all stayed so long , busy watching the water .My sis has asked me to go out with them tonight , (glutton for punishment as i'm with them all next week ) I will go as i never say no if anyone asks me to go anywhere , but i will miss you all tonight . Party in the chat room i hear , i'll make the next one lol .
Me and Maddie watched strictly again this afternoon, which i had recorded , she might only be 16 months but she loves it already bless . Hope you bought a big flash sporty car Helen .. I might catch you all later if yoy cant tear yourselves away from the chat room , but i will admit i cant always keep up in chat rooms , everthing moves so fast , i'm still readind what someone has typed and the subject has already changed so you will have to bear with me .. Have fun everybody , enjoy your evening what ever you do .
Lynnexxxxxxxxxxxx
Nice picture Sue xx Anyone know how to edit posts xx
Can`t see how to edit Lynne
Yes I can!!! Click on more (next to repy)than scroll down to edit
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