My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Morning all I see you all had a good chin wag last night and welcome to Coral , the more the merrieir Coral ,I lost my husband on the 1st July which is very close to your loss i think . There a great bunch and i couldn't get through without them . i'm awake and full of enthusiasm today , baby sitting my little grand daughtere this morning and then i'm going shopping for my little cuddly dog to replace the mising one and then its on to my garden , it might not get past the planning stage today . i only have a small garden so it wont take much planning really , i might need a bit of muscle to move some pavers and thats where my sons will come in ..


Maxromy , my husband also had trouble talking about what was happening (as i did ) we could talk to other people but struggled with each other , which othr people who knew us we're suprised about as we talked about anything , i think we both found it to upsetting , on the few occasions we did talk i think everything that could have been said was said . We both worshipeed the ground the other walked on . Because he was a little confused when he went into hospital i probably didn't get to say some things i thought i would say to him , but i didn't have too as he knew . When i came back from the chapel of rest i had a real melt down and screamed at my son and said the things that you are thinking "what if he's mad at me " What if he's thinking why arn't you laid here instead of me " "why didn't i do more " and i know that is totally stupid now , why would he want me to be dead , we didn't have a choice , cancer had that choice , but it doesn't stop us going through all these things . I hope you start to feel better soon and welcome to this thread ..

Take care all , have a good day , the sun is out here .

Lynne xxxx