My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Hello everyone. It is lovely to come in from work and to have heard from you all - I love catching up. I have had my mum & dad round this evening. They are going to look after the plants on Chris's grave and those in my garden while I am away. It is not too much hard work as I installed a watering system in the back garden this summer - probably my fault the weather has been so bad!! But dad wasn't sure where the tap was at the cemetery so I had to show him.

Sue - how is your kitten doing?

Glad you got your car back Patricia. I hadn't thought of you being a nurse even with the shifts. It must be difficult for you so take care of yourself.

It is a good idea to replace the little dog and keep it with you this time Lynne. I hope you are feeling a bit better today. When Ryan has finished the vase I will post a photo for you to see.

That must have ben a scary moment Kaz with the exploding tumble dryer. Mine is in the garage but I only run it when I am in as I read a while ago that they are the domestic appliance most likely to go on fire because of the heat and the fluff. There are 2 smoke alarms in the garage but thanks for the advice for everyone's sake.

Good evening Kev. I will keep an open mind about counselling after what you have said Helen. It sounds like you could be right and that we are actually doing the best job of supporting each other here. I think I will give it one go but not have too high an expectation. Maybe we are the ones best fixed to know what might help each other as we have had the experience unfortunately.

Right - best be off as I have a couple more cards to do before I go away. Take care everyone. Ailsa xx

Hi All , i'm feeling a bit better than last night , still mad when i think about the low life but i'll put it into perspective and get on with things again . Have a good holiday Ailsa , thats what wories me about when i go away for a few days in a few weeks , i'm used to going to the grave twice a day and watering everything if needed , i know the kids will go if i ask them but it wont be as often as i go , i know i'll be on edge if i dont go but it might do me good aswell not to be there all the time , time will tell .
Hail Trisha ,i take my hat off to you , nurses do a fantastic job , i deal with them all the time in my job , and i have total respect for you all , and i know it must be even harder for you a the moment , i hope your coping alright ..
Helen sorry you didn't get what you wanted , none of us seem to be able to get the answers to our questions . WHY WHY WHY thats in my head all the time .. Hope your doing ok too tonight Kev , you off on holiday again soon ?

Kaz what a day/night you have had , mine is boring in comparison .

Hi Fiona , Sue , Gayle , Coral and dottee . How are you all ?

Lynne xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx