12 months!

Our border collie is a Jack, too. 

That's three Jacks then between us of varying breeds and sizes. 

I'm the odd one out then, my black lab is called Polly! 

My son's golden lab is called `Daphne`

Polly and Daphne are lovely names. My next girl I want to call Lily or Anya. I would adopt another now if I could,but having to walk 4 when Son is working or away is enough. When he moves out I want to try foster . So many dogs are crying out for foster homes which get them a forever home so much quicker than if they stayed in the cages in rescue kennels. Problem is I always get attached and want to keep them. We have a Kodi + from Bulgaria ,) and Luka( from Macedonia ) Sons dogs . And mine are Jack        ( from Cordoba ) and Jess ( from Málaga ) Both I had taken out of a pound. This can be more expensive than getting through a rescue. 

Mine is a crazy black cocker spaniel.  
We bought him to give Ade something to keep him busy when he has to stop working, however I think we got him to give me a purpose now xx 

I love Spaniels. I want another Spaniel. We had a crazy Springer. Runt of the litter  He had separation anxiety even though we already had a large male Collie. I could not shut a door on him without him scratching the door or without  ripping the carpet or lino up in shreds . He was a loving boy who craved attention. After 4 years and still destroying the flooring Hubby had enough and gave him to a friend who had a small holding. We did cry a lot ,but he was probably happier there once he got used to it. The next Spaniel I got was a Breton when my two died at 12 years from cancer and 16 years from old age. She was a terrified little girl. Found skin and bone . Hunter owner had starved and beaten her. She eventually got used to us ,but it took 6 years for her to trust strangers. She was a gorgeous girl. So gentle and great with Children. She died of Lung cancer age approx. 12-13 y. Then my other girl died after we think she had a stroke  14 years old A Pointer X Staffie x Dalmation possibly. . One I found dumped in the streets in Spain. She was a mental case, but very loving . Never a dull moment with her. 

I had my 3rd `anniversary` if you want to call it that 2 weeks ago (23rd June) still feels as fresh as the day it happened. Yes and you're right definitely nothing to celebrate.  I have though i feel managed to move on be it so slightly so much has happened I want to share with him and that makes me really sad that I can't. Silly little incidental things that happen and he's not here to give an opinion either and this year with the World Cup football he would have been putting in his tuppence worth about the Scotland team getting kicked out so early little things like that. Sending you best wishes. 

We cannot separate from the thoughts of wanting to share our thoughts,worries and the need for discussing our opinions from our other half ,even though they aren't physically here with us anymore. In my case almost 50 years together and now nothing. I imagine my Hubby shouting at the TV along with our youngest son. It is very sad . I wake up sad and go to bed sad.l sometimes feel things are shifting a little ,but then I fall back and just fall apart. I'm waiting for Talking Therapy to begin end of this month. I don't know if it will help. But I feel stuck in this dark place. My Sister says try not to feel so sad. Much as I push myself to get up and do the day to day things . Trying to get things done in this house and outdoors. I really find no Joy in anything anymore. I keep getting told to be more Positive. I tried that before I lost my Hubby and what happened ? I lost him.   It's difficult to think positively when things go so badly wrong. 

We were 40 years together, it is incredibly hard to carry on without them. I had to do a food shop today. My husband Paul would have carried it in, and unpacked. Then made me a cold drink. I have strained my shoulder, and it was difficult in the heat. He was a gentleman, and I miss his love every day. It will be 2 years on the 4th August, and I am feeling really low again. Hugs to all. xxx